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? flying high .
that silly lady.

joyce.
fireworks are love.
sparklers light up the darkness admist the darkness.

i'll run away from reality.



? whispers the secret .
quietly and silently.


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? rewind the tape .
travel back to the past.

12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004
04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004
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10/01/2007 - 11/01/2007

? letting go .
set them free.

celena.
rachel.
sarah.
amanda.
june.
celine.
wanling.
cheryl.

YOUTUBE.
MTV.


? credits .
thankyouverymuch

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Brushes: 07 08 09 10
Fonts: 11

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