{ when time comes to a standstill.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

{ freed on 11:29 PM

just saw something and all i can say is i fcuking hell really DO NOT like the way you phrase things. what the hell was that supposed to mean?

DAMN.
i'm so close, just so close to screaming now.
so close to breaking down.

i dun wanna do anything already.
i'm sick and tired of having to face the damn laptop for research work every single night.
~~FUCK~~

what if..
everything falls apart?

{ freed on 11:26 PM

BIRTHDAY ~~CELEBRATION~~SURPRISE WAS A SUCCESS.
TEEHEE.

i love ya loads babe. =)

{ freed on 12:03 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST WAN LING!
you're finally 18.
WOOTS.

i'm so happy for you can?
=)

Labels: happy birthday.

Monday, July 30, 2007

{ freed on 9:52 PM

serious lack of sleep.
woke up reluctantly to get prepared for school.
didn't want to attend lectures at all.

stayed back after lecture to do my research.
got some parts done.
note the word, SOME.
was watching why why love on youtube also.
multi-tasking is what you call.
afterall, i'm always good at that, ain't it?

couldn't stand the sleepy bug.
almost dozed off while doing my research.
headed for home.

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right now, i'm sitting in front of my oh-so-lovely laptop.
doing my cmsk speech.
and my research for DERV
and my powerpoint for cmsk presentation tmr.
MULTI-TASKING, YET AGAIN.

cmsk, done.
i'm left with derv right now.
SIGH.

formal tmr.
i'm so not liking it.

{ freed on 3:26 AM

time check: 3.27am

darn, my eyes are aching having stared at the comp for the whole day. and here i am typing this in the dark simply because if i stayed another minute in the living room staring at my comp, i'll end up quarreling with mom over this. yes, like hell i know it's late and who doesn't wanna go sleep? i really do but the dumb evaluation criteria is staring at me, screaming at me to finish it quick.

boohoo to the dumb e criteria please.

not to mention, lecture's at 10 later in the morning. how great can that can?
sark.

Labels: sleepless night.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

{ freed on 1:21 AM

FIREWORKS ARE SUCH LOVE.
short lived but mesmerising.

♥

Saturday, July 28, 2007

{ freed on 2:36 PM

IF ONLY SCHOOL WASN'T SUCH AN ASS.
i might have something less to rant about.
i might have more time for my own.

assignments are killing me. i've got so much stuff to complete this weekends.

CMSK presentation speech plus slide
DERV compiled research.
2 COTS evaluation criteria
BFA project summary

i sure wish you could kill me right now so i needn't have to complete the work. there's hardly any time for myself.

there's nothing for me to be enthusiatic about right now. school's boring me to death and crushing me with the heavy assignments. school term's coming to an end which means project submissions are nearing. uh oh, not good at all.

i wished i could go abroad to study as well and leave this horrid place where academic grades do matter. i really don't mind. just another 1 and and a half more years. darn, it's still so long.

Labels: falling apart.

Friday, July 27, 2007

{ freed on 12:40 AM

took a break from everything and i had a nice family dinner. met momo at town and after that off we went to this place called sha villa. well, it was kinda to support my cousin, jiajun who was learning how to be a chef at there. i must say.. fine dining it was. it was a 6 course meal and i definitely enjoyed it. hahaas.

delicious looking food, who could resist?
alright, pics for all to view.

appetiser - dual prawn with mango salsa

soup - cappuccino shroom

sorbet - watermelon float

bro's main course - orangy glazed chicken drizzled
with crimson wine sauce

my main course - Pan broiled salmon showered
with creamy dill

and now presenting the sweetest looking dessert i ever seen. =)
Strawberry classic with melba sauce. yum yum.

some pics i took a while back during INTSC's AGM.

leon, joyce and june. =)

us with mr CK! =)

us wearing formal. =)

LALA.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

{ freed on 10:54 PM

Sundays will never be the same again.

the skies today were gloomy, much like my mood. i guess it was probably because cel was leaving. the second departure in 3 days. the feeling ain't great, i swear. everything has changed ever since the week started. manda's back in the states, cel should probably have arrived safely at perth, australia and the rest of us are back here in s'pore. i can't help but to feel.. sad cos we're all at different parts of the world right now. is it just me? oh well.

i'm supposed to be mugging hard enough for my research but the feeling just ain't there. no motivation, no whatsoever. evaluation criteria isn't done up at all and i don't even feel panicky when i have to hand it in for submission tmr during lesson time.

am i really affected by everyone's leaving? maybe i am, maybe i'm not. maybe i'm just tired of everything. the thought of having nothing to do, slacking around seems so faraway. i'm always drained by the end of the day ever since the new semester started. or maybe i've just been crying to much that it's draining my energy away. i'm tired. i'm dead serious. i just wanna leave everything behind now and run away to anywhere in the world, lead a peaceful life where no one knows me. who knows? i might just disappear one day.

in the meanwhile..
i'll just head back to the ever heavy workload.

Labels: sundays.

{ freed on 12:02 AM

TIMETABLE FOR SEMESTRAL EXAM

Fundamentals of Investment
Date: 28 Aug 07 (Tue)
Time: 09:30 - 11:30
Venue: Sports Hall
Seat no: 9

Business Intelligence Systems
Date: 29 Aug 07 (Wed)
Time: 14:30-16:30
Venue: IT04-04-61
Seat no: 19

it's so funny that both my seat numbers happen to have a 9 at the back. isn't that such a coincidence? alright, timetable's out which means there's gonna be the stress. darn, i hate it.
dang, i've only got a month to prepare.

from five to three, i guess i'll have to get used to life without cel and manda around again. i ~~love~~hate this week. it's 2 departures within a week, oh make that a 2 departures within 3 days. =( eyes were slightly swollen today after i woke up. i guess, i'm gonna miss manda loads. =(

i'm a big cry baby.

Monday, July 23, 2007

{ freed on 12:31 AM

i never knew saying goodbye was so tough.
the tears weren't supposed to roll down.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

{ freed on 11:30 PM

DANG!
derv quiz on monday.
busy weekends for me.

gonna be out the whole day tmr.
I FREAKING HELL NEED TIME TO STUDY.

money market securities.
commercial paper.
discount instruments.
T-bills.

SO MUCH STUFF TO STUDY.
SO LITTLE TIME, SERIOUSLY.

manda leaving, tmr.
boohoo.
i've got a gut feeling my eyes are gonna be all red and swollen on monday morning.
that ought to explain everything.

contemplating.

Labels: fighting against time.

{ freed on 10:55 PM

i wished i had this.

carry on dreaming joyce, it might just come true.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

{ freed on 11:29 PM

Just got it from ms JUNE TAN ~~yin xiu.~~ oops. =x

Important Dates:

23rd July - DERV Quiz 1

31st July - CMSK Presentation

8th Aug - Submission of COTS Report & DERV Quiz 2

10th Aug - Accounting Final Test

13th Aug - DERV Presentation (if not will be on the 14th)

14th Aug - Submission of brochure

15th Aug - COTS Presentation

17th Aug - Submission of Accounting Project.

i just realised that there's so many things that are waiting for me to go complete them but i just don't have the energy left to do them. plus, it's really bad enough that i'm quite stressed up from all the workload that's piling up like nobody's business. not to mention, i'm gonna have a quiz, yet AGAIN this coming mon. arrgh. i don't think i'll be able to study for it seeing that my weekends are all burnt out. SIGH.

grades have been a disaster. i'm serious. never have i felt that worse in my entire semester. i gotta buck up, like seriously. or else my gpa is gonna drop even more. i can't afford to let it drop anymore. tell me, who else has the motivation to go school seeing that she has so much stuff to complete?

any old how.

it's gonna be 2 departures within a week. dear old manda is leaving to go back to the states on the 22nd july while celly is leaving for perth, australia on the 24th. darn, i dread those days. cos i know that this emo baby right now who's typing can't bear to let them go. we've known each other for quite a long time now and it really has been loads of fun having them around. manda dearest has brought us much laughter ever since she was back with her hilarious chinese. LOL. oops. =x and celly has been a great friend all these years. i'll miss them.

from left to right : rach, cel, yours truly, manda and sarah!

i'm gonna miss having them around.

Labels: emo-ed.

{ freed on 2:20 PM

stuck in school right now. just came back from lunch at TMall. i can finally eat normal food! like WOOHOO. you don't know how happy i am about it. LOL. reason, i've been freaking hell sick for the past few days and the doc told me that i wasn't supposed to eat anything spicy, oily and fried. =/

and yes, it ain't fun having gastritis. boohoo. just got scolded from momo ytd night when i bought some stuff home. she said that although i'm alright now but i should still refrain from eating spicy food until next week. like.. great.

any old how.

new assignment was just released ytd. you have no idea how bad it's gonna be. no report, just plain presentation. this is so gonna kill me off. i'm serious, dead serious. presentations are gonna be a nerve wrecking one with absolutely no one to help me if things turn out so wrong. THIS SARK. i wished school ended earlier.

nevermind joyce.. just one more month. one more month till you smell freedom.
nice way of telling myself that though.

gonna catch HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX later after lessons with family. it's the second time i'm catching the movie. i seriously don't mind though. teehee. WOOTS. hello ms lee, when are we gonna catch the movie? LOL.

till then, toodles. =)

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

{ freed on 10:36 PM

everything went so wrong, SO WRONG today. the whole BI lab test was such a screw up. i was so darn pissed with the whole program and it didn't really help much when some stuff happened between the tutor and i. arrgh, it sarked, real badly. wasn't in any mood after that to do whatever stuff. apologies to celine and june if i wasn't in the right mood for anything today.

headed to itas canteen for an early lunch. didn't have the appetite to eat but i told myself to eat cos i took my medicine just now. couldn't finish anyway. went for cmsk and did our draft presentation. was commented that i had to remember not to say too many 'actually'. LOL. to think that i had such a problem too.

headed back to the lab at level 7 to print our notes and boy, the printer was being such an ass. papers were always jammed and i had a hard time pulling them out. like arrgh. everything is just so darn wrong today, the printer and the dumb lab test.

darn.

Monday, July 16, 2007

{ freed on 12:02 AM

Enrique Iglesias
"Do you know? ( The ping pong song) "

Do you know?
And Do you know?
Do you know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can’t get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I’m standing on the edge and I don’t know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don’t talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.

(Do you know?)

Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that’s never ever happened to me.

(Do you know?)

But after this episode I don’t see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that’s in a rush to throw you away?
(Do you know how it feels?)
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?
(Do you know how it feels?)

(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)
(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)

Saturday, July 14, 2007

{ freed on 11:41 PM

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

Avril Lavigne - nobody's home.

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

{ freed on 11:33 PM

sometimes i don't know what i want anymore.
i've lost all motivation.
if running away was an option i'll definitely do so.
the level of endurance is reaching its limit.
that's all i have to say.

arrgh, ignore me.
i'm just uttering some nonsensical words.

Friday, July 13, 2007

{ freed on 12:23 AM

finally after all the nerve wrecking moments, i've finally submitted the group project up. it's actually a relief for me after all the sleepless nights rushing this project. don't remind me that i still have some more projects to do.

caught up with my dearest trina today and i must say i really enjoyed everything. it's been a while ever since we really talked so much like today. it really got me thinking about certain issues that has been bothering me but yeah, i hope i'll be able to get them sorted out. notice the i hope? hahaas.

maybe i've been trying too hard, just like what trina has said. i ought to relax more and enjoy. i wished i could but circumstances forbid me to do so. sometimes, i really feel tired, tired of everything. i wished i could just let go of everything and give myself a break from everything that has been happening around me. it's really hard living up to everyone's expectations and even my own expectations. maybe the perfect facade that i've been trying to mask is falling apart. who knows, really?

A PERFECT GETAWAY IS WHAT I NEED RIGHT NOW.

Labels: the ideal getaway.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

{ freed on 12:01 AM

surprise, surprise.
TEEHEE. =)

alright, the last day for rushing of FOI assignment. Indeed it was a tough and tiring journey for me. i knew nothing about the whole project. but now, the project is all done up and i feel a sense of accomplishment. hahaas. WOOTS.

any old how.

the late nights have been draining my energy off, leaving me all so exhausted by the time i go to lalaland. oops. =x i need some energy, some.. entertainment in my life before i go nuts, like seriously. anyone wanna entertain this girl here?

everyone's been reading the harry potter series again. it seemed like a sudden fanatic again. maybe i should start on my book as well. afterall, it's been ages since i've last read the book. hahaas. alright, i'm so gonna read the book, after i do a search for them in the store room. LOL. they're hidden among the big big shelves and within the big big boxes.

and oh oh oh! i finally get to meet up with my dearest trina, who has kindly invited me for movies. WOOTS. HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOENIX! i can't wait for our meet up tmr. oh man, this is getting so cool and i'm going crazy over it. wahahas.

and shoots, i just realised that i've got an accounting test on friday. oh well, i could always study after i come home from movies. LOL. YAY to TRINA! =)

maybe it isn't that bad afterall.

Labels: 1 down, a few more to go.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

{ freed on 11:45 PM

Your Birthdate: May 27

For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over.
In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with.
You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending!

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5

You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

{ freed on 10:56 PM

i've just realised that it's my 400th post! like WOOHOO!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE CHIA SING YIN! =)
you're finally 18th! double yay! hope that you've enjoyed your special day alright? YOU MUST BE HONOURED cos it's my 400th post and it's specially for YOU. WOOTS.

now we're left with ms lee wan ling. HURRY UP! =p

school has been nasty to me, with all the project submissions. dang, and i just realised that foi project submission is on thursday which means i've got approximately 1 more day to get everything done. SIGH. foi is driving me nuts, i swear. how do i compare the risk vs. returns? any kind soul wanna render his/her help to me? i need some explanation. boohoo. i'm being such a whiny person whining about my project submissions. it's always been project submissions and test ever since term 2 started. like seriously, wth.

been catching up with long time friends and i must say the feeling's great. saw trina today at itas and boy, it felt really great to see her for i don't know whatsoever reason. i don't know but i really missed our crapping sessions. p.s we need some star gazing sessions. =) teehee.

and oh oh oh! my dumb dumb slip-ons broke in school! thank goodness it broke like after lecture or else it would have been so embarrassing if i had to walk around with a broken slip on. LOL.

BI lab drove everyone nuts, like seriously. i'm so gonna pray that i'll pass my lab test next week. lol.

SIGH, WHAT A DAY.

Monday, July 09, 2007

{ freed on 8:59 PM

it's been a cold day today. *brrrrrr* i'm freezing my ass right now even though i've worn my jacket. to make things worse, my terrible headache is driving me nuts. BOOHOO. =( i've been wearing my jacket the whole day already and things don't seem to be working.

I'M COLD.

{ freed on 8:52 PM

GWEN STEFANI LYRICS
"4 In The Morning"
Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

(Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)

Labels: i'm in love with this song.

{ freed on 12:04 PM

my blogger's being such an ass.
the fonts are SO SO SO SO BIG..
and the words are GREEN!

they're supporting the earth day! WOOTS.
SIAO.

{ freed on 12:05 AM

it's the beginning of a new week

and....

the start of TOTAL BOREDOM again.

sigh, moodless for school. i ~~love~~ HATE school.

Labels: school.

Saturday, July 07, 2007

{ freed on 11:29 PM

I MISS CELINE! BOOHOO. =(

it is only the second day and gosh, i'm missing dear celine already. lectures are really a bore without her around. wait a minute, i should say life is such a bore without her.

bbq yesterday night and i must say it was really funny and different. had mixed feelings about going for the bbq cos i didn't really know the people there but yeah, it turned out alright in the end. came home feeling really drained and tired that i KO-ed even before 1. LOL.

my dear babe is starting school already, ms lee wan ling. HELLO MS LEE, PLEASE REMEMBER TO ASK ME OUT WHEN YOU'RE FREE AND YOU SHALL NOT FORGET ABT ME WHEN YOU'RE AT SIM. woots.

the workload is getting heavier and heavier, stress is getting immense. i don't know how long more can i hold on to before the big big balloon burst. i wonder.. i seriously need to get a life of my own. i feel as though school work is taking up most of my time. i hardly have time for myself and my family. i only get to see momo and dad like at nights on weekdays and it's like considerably little as i get home like almost 8 everyday now. come to think of it, i haven't been spending much time with my family now. darn. i know it's kinda bad of me to do so. ALRIGHT, I SHALL MAKE IT A POINT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH MOMO AND DAD WHEN THE RUSH PERIOD IS OVER.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

{ freed on 10:39 PM

i just realised..

i've got 2 PROJECT SUBMISSIONS AND 1 TEST NEXT WEEK!
tell me how the hell am i gonna study when i've got 2 freaking project submissions!

~~WK 12- Fri 13 July, 8am (next week)~~ WK 13 – Mon 16th July, 8am [CASH Quiz 2]
WK 14 – Mon 23 July, 8am [DERV Quiz 1]
WK 16 – Wed Aug 8, 8am [DERV Quiz 2]

great ain't it! i've got loads of tests coming up. this sarks real badly. i so do not like school now. sometimes i question myself why am i even in this course? this sarks, like real badly. AHHH! i so need a getaway, please please please? bring me to anywhere, anywhere will do.

i dread waking up now.

Labels: so little time., so many things to do

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

{ freed on 11:40 PM

LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP ALWAYS SUCK.
boohoo.

Labels: rattles on and on.

{ freed on 10:41 PM

SOMETIMES I WONDER.

why exactly am i going to school for? there's nothing else that motivates me to go school now. class? no comments. friends, definitely worth going to school for. =)

this is so not what i wanted.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

{ freed on 10:48 PM

my legs are aching!! lol.

basically, my days are spent revolving around korean dramas right now. been catching the korean drama that momo has kindly borrowed for me. THANK YOU MOMO! =) teehee. i tell you, yoo eun hye is reallllyyyy CUTE. WOOTS. hahaas.

went for the citi milkrun 2007 today. hahaas. there were loads of people i swear. ran with celine, june and steven but june and i lost them after a while. they zoomed till so far. lol. anyway, we completed the run and boy was i tired. haven't done so much running for so long. it's time to exercise.

went over to central after the run for our dinner. june's cousin joined us for dinner. i queued 10 mins for my hor fun which tasted really bland but i was sooooo lazy to walk back to the stall to get the green chilli. hahaas. after which, we walked from central to raffles place. it's really fun actually. teehee. =)

alright, and now i'm dead tired. hahaas. pics shall do the talking.

darren, june and yours truly. =)

us with jeremy!

my babe.

p.s celine! you missed out on the cam-whoring. boohoo. =(