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? flying high .
that silly lady.

joyce.
fireworks are love.
sparklers light up the darkness admist the darkness.

i'll run away from reality.



? whispers the secret .
quietly and silently.


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? rewind the tape .
travel back to the past.

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? letting go .
set them free.

celena.
rachel.
sarah.
amanda.
june.
celine.
wanling.
cheryl.

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MTV.


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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
{ freed on 9:13 PM

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oKie oKiE..i aDmiT...wHEn i hAbiNg tRaiNiNg..i hOpEd tHaT i wOuLd bE aBlE tO sEE hIm..kInda silly hUh..?rEAlli..nO kiDDin..i wAs aCtuAllY hOpiNg tHaT i wOulD bE ablE tO sEE hIm dERE..bUrT..nOpE i dIdn'T SEE hIM...iTz bEEn lIkE..nEaRlY a mOnTH sInCE hE lEft..i hABEn SEEn hIM fEr lIkE mEaRlY a mOnTH..i mIssED hIm...i REalLi dO..aLtHouGH i nOe tHaT iTZ iMpoSSibLe fER tHe tWO oF uS tO bE tOgEthEr...bUrT iT sEEms lIkE i sTIll cHeRIsh tHe hOpE thaT wE mAy bE tOgEthER..i fEEl sHo fOoliSH..wAItiNg fEr sOmeOnE tHat i nOe iT wIll bE iMpoSSibLe bEtWEEn tHe tWo oF uS..hAIz..!wHy aM i sHO FOOliSH..i tOld mYsElF tHaT i wIll fOrgET aBt hIm..i tRIeD rEallI mOi bEst nOt tO tInk aBt hIM..bUrT iT dOesn't wOrk..iM rEalli tIrED oF pReTendiNg tHat iM oKiE wHen iN aCtuaL iM nOt..!

"Everytime"

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

*p.S..gUeSS tHiS sOnG sAEs a lOt aBt mOi..!

sIgniNG oFF //lUrve hUrTZ\\


Monday, May 24, 2004
{ freed on 10:27 PM

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Friday, May 21, 2004
{ freed on 8:18 PM

heYz hEyz dErE..mOi iSh gonnA bLog nOw..kAes kAes..sIgh..mY resUlTs SUX TO THE CORE..!..aRrgH..Moi iSH pReTTy sUrE tHaT iM gOnnA fAil tWo sUbs..yEaH..aNd wAD'S mOrE..tHe mArKs aRe sHO dAMn lOw..wOw..gUeSS tHIS mId yEaR eXAMs hAb bEEn reALLi a wAKe uP cAl fEr mOi..i hAB bEEN plAyiNg tOo mUcH..tOo mUcH tHaT iM bEginnInG tO sLaCk iN mOi wOrk...iTz aLwaEs aFtER eVeRy eXAMs wHeN i gET bAcKs mOi rEsuLtS tHaT i rEaliSEd tHat i SHOuLd nOt bE pLayiNg aNymOrE..bUrT wHy dO i nOt lIstEN tO mOi dAd's aDvIcE aNd sTudY..i sEEm tO bE tAKiNg sTUdiEs vErY liGHtlY..tHaT'S tHe wROng tHinKiN..rEaLli..bEllE sAes wE sHOuLd wAKe uP nOw aNd nOt plAY lIaOz..i aGrEE..i hAB bEEN pLayiNg aNd sLaCkIn tOo mUcH..tOo mUcH tHaT i dUnCH wANs tO sTUdY..aRRgh..iTz alwaEs afTeR mOi eXAm tHaT i reALiSeD mOi'S mIstAKe..bUrT i aLwaEs bReaK mOi'S pROmiSE To mOi pArENtS..i fEEL aS tHouGh i hAB lEt mOi pArEnts dOwn yOu nOe..mOi pArENtS hAb sucH hIgH hOpEs oN mOi aNd yEt i lEt tHeM dOwN tIme aNd TIme..sIgh..tHis fEELiNg sImpLy sUx..!wAd's mOrE..wAD i waNts..tHeY tRY tHeIr bEsT tO fUlfIll wAd i wANs..i fEEl aS tHouGh iM sHo sELfisH..!iM jUz a sElfisH gEr..wAd i wANs..mOi pArENts will tRY tHeIr bEst tO gIb mOi wAd i wANs..wAd mOi pArEnts wAns iSh tHat i gEt gOOd rEsUlTs...bUrT i eNd uP hUrtiNg tHeM wIth tHe rEsuLts i gEt aLwAEs..wHy aM i sHo nOt oBeDIeNt..?aRRgh..juz fEEl lIkE sAyiNg sOrriE tO mOi pArENts..bUrT i nOe tHaT sAeiNg sOrriE wun hEaL tHe wOunDs iN tHeIr hEarT..iTz oF nO uSE..WEll..i hAb dEcidEd..iM nOt gOnnA pLaY aROunD aNymOre..aFtER tHe jUnE hOlidAes..iM gOnnA gIb iT mOi bEsT fER aLl mOi sUbs..aSpeciALly tHe wEakEr SUbS..i wANs tO pASs aLl mOi sUbs bY tHe eNd oF tHe yEaR..aNd oBtAIn aT leAsT a B4 fEr aLl tHe sUbs...i nOe iTz pOssibLe iF i duncH pLaYs tOo mUch..sHo i mUz wOrK hArD..WEll..i tinK gOd mAde mOi gEt tHis kInd oF rEsulTs sHo tHAt i wIll nOe tHaT i OugHt tO wAKe uP aNd nOt pLAY aNymOre..wEll..i wAnnA prAy fER mOi pArENTS' aCCeptAncE oF mOi rEsuLts..aNd tHaT aFtEr tHy sCOlD mOi tHey wIll mAKe mOi wAKe up..


Thursday, May 20, 2004
{ freed on 10:49 PM

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hAhAAs..hAb tWo pErioDs fRee tOdaY..sErEne cAMe ovEr tO mOi cLaSS..aNywAe..tHe rElieF tEaCheR wAs zhaNg lAO sHi..sHe didn"t mInd tHouGH..hAHAAs..dEns..wE sAW 4e3'S rEculTs fEr cHemisTrY..wAhAhas..rEsuLts lIKe wAd sIa..i sAW dERricK's rEsulTs..Hmmm..hAhAAs..yeAh..i sAW hIs rEsulTs..hE fLunK cHeM..sAme aS mOi..!hAhAAs..bUrT i gUeSS hIs pAPeR iSh a lOt mOrE dIfficUlT dENs mInE..cOmpAriNg tHaT hIs claSS iSh a tRiplE sCieNcEs cLaSS..aNd mIne cLaSS..?cOmbiNeD sCienCes..kAeS kAes..dEnS lAtEr..zHaNg lAO sHi aSKed sErEne tO gO uP tO 4e3 tO taKe sOmetHiNg fROm dErE..cAn'T yOu iMagiNe tHe lOok oN seREnE's fAcE..sHe totaLly wEnt nUts..!hAHAAs..wEll..i wAs nErvOuS tOo tHougH..nErvOuS tO sEE dErriCk i gUeSS..hAhAAs..oH wEll..sHo wE wEnt tO 4e3..tHe tEaCheR wAS yaSmin..hAhAAs..i aSkeD sErENe tO gO iN aNd aSk..wHiLe i sTaNd oUtsIdE..hAhaAs..sHe wAS sHO dAmN nErvOuS..bCuz HB wAS sIttiN iN fRonT..hAhAAs..wHeReaS fER mOi..dERricK wAS sittiN aT tHe sEcoNd rOw fRom tHe dOor..hE sAW mOi..aNd sOrTa wEnt lIke..jOyce..?i sMileD TO hIm..aNd hE smiLed bAck..!dEns hE turnED aWaY..bUrT sUddeNlY hE tUrneD bACk aNd sMilEd aT mOi aGain..hAhAAs..i waS lIke..??oH wELl..wE gOt tHe thIngY aNd lEfT tHe clAss..hAHAAs..sErEne..wEnt nUtS..!hAhAAs..wEEee.!mE..?yEAh..pRettY hAppy bCuz fInAllY i sMilEd aT dERrick aNd hE smiLed bACk..!haHaAas..

dEns..wHen wE wErE TM..wE sAw HB aGaiN..bCuz wE wErE eaTiN aT mAc..dEns HB aNd kEl sAT soMewHeRe nEaR tO uS..aNd oF cOurSe..sErEnE..nEEdlEss TO sAe..!hAhAAs..wE kEEP sEEiNg HB tOdAy..hAHAAs..aNd wAD's mOrE..sHe hEaRD hIs vOiCe fEr tHe fIrsT tIme..iM sHO hAppY fEr hEr..haHaas..!wAS tInkiN oF hIm..bEllE sAEs i sHoulD nOt tInk oF hIm..tInk oF dErriCk iNsTeAD..oH OkieX..tInk oF dERriCK..?cAns tRy..bUrT i rEckOn iT wOrKs..i oNli wANs tO sEE hIm..wHy aM i hOpiNg sHo mUch tO sEE hIm..iZZiT rEAllI wAd tHe pRovErB sAEs iSh correCT..?aBsEnce mAkeS tHe heArT gROw fOndER..?dUhs..i gueSS sHo..hMmmm..bUrT i hAb alrEadI pRomiSE tHat i wIll fOrgEt aBt hIm..hAIz..sEEiNg SeREnE sHo hAPpy tOdAy..i mUz sAE..i eNvY hER..bCUz sHe cAns sEE hIm..mE..?cAN'T..oH wEll..hOpE hE cUms bACk iN tErM 3..pLeAsE pLeaSE lEt hIm cUm bACk fEr tErm 3..pLeaSE..!i rEAlli wAnnA sEE hIm..oKieX oKiEx..i nOe..i sHall sEE..iF tErM 3 hE nEbER cUm baCk..i sHall gIb uP..tOtALly..fUllY..!hOpE i dUnCh bReAk mOi pRomiSE tO mOisELf..bUrT tInk i wIll bReAk tHe pRomiSe..bcUz i rEallI wAnna wAit..bUrt i tOo nOe tHaT iTz iMpoSSibLe bEtWEEn tHe tWo oF uS..hAIz..iTz lIke..iM cAugHt iN tHe mIddlE..cAugHt iN a dIleMmA..aRRgh..!
duncH wANnA tInk oR mIss yOu..bUrt i cAN't..yoUR imAge kEEps aPpeaRiNg in mOi mInd..!

Simple Plan
Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think i'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
'Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm all right
and you can't change me

CHORUS
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last for ever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far awayAnd it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you'Cuz you don't understand

i dUnch nOes..bUrt jUz fELt lIke pUttiNg tHe lYrIcS fER pErfEct..!


Wednesday, May 19, 2004
{ freed on 10:20 PM

hArlOoW..mOi iSh bACK..!hAPpy tO sEE mOi..?bEt yOU aRe..dIaOz.!-_-"haHaaS..wHy aM i tALking TO mOisELf..hAHAAs..kAeS kAEs..tMl wOulD bE tHe cHeCkiN oF mOi sCripTs..hAhAaS..mOi pHysIcs wOuld bE a dEfiniTE fAil..cHemisTrY tOo..dEfifnItE fAIl..sHo mOi's cOmbinED sCiencEs isH a fAIl..cOmbIneD hUmanitIeS..?i dUnCH nOes..mR sHaRiL sAE tHaT mOsT oF uS dId bEttEr iN our hIstOrY rAtHeR tHaN oUr ss..hAhAAs..hOpE tHaT iM oNe oF tHem..kAes kAes..e maThs..?iM hopiNg fEr a B3-A2..sIncE tHe paPeR wAS sHo eASy..i tInk..a mAtHs..dunCH rEAllI hAb hIgh hOpEs oN It..a pASs wouLd dO..eNg..?hOpe tHaT i pASS aNd dO wELl..i cAN'T aFForD tO fAIl mOi eNg..rEaLLi..cHi..?sAme eXpeCTaTionS aS mOi e maThs..sHOuLd bE ablE tO aCHieVE iF iM nOt wROng..bIo..aRRgh..mR hAfIz wEnt tHrOugh tHe MCQ qUesTIoNs wItH uS todAy..aRRgh..i hAB 10 wROnG..oH no..!mY sEctiOn B wAS bAdLy dOne..sEctiOn C..eVEn wORsE..aRRgh..oH nO..!gUeSS iM gOnnA sPeNd mOi jUnE hOlidAEs wiTH hIM..aRRgh..lIt..mOi dUnCH gIb a dAMn..fAIl..sHO lET iT bE..i wASn'T exPecTiNg to paSS iT tOO..wHO wOUld gIb a dAMn..

ARRgH..iM gOnnA bE sHo sHo sHo bUsY nExT wEEK..iMagiNe..fOur dAEs oF NDP tRaiNiNg fER sTUdEnt leAdErs..aNd dENs 3 dAEs 2 nItEz oF leAdERsHiP cAMp..aH..!dERe gOeS mOi wHOLe wEEK..mOndAE..tUesDAe..wEdnesdAe..tHursdAE..bUrnT bCuz oF NDP tRaiNiNg..fRIdAe..fInallY a dAE fER mOi tO reSt..sAtuRdAE..sUndAe..mOndAe..leAdErSHiP cAMp..wOws..dER gOeS mOi bIrTHdAe..wAs eXPecTiNg tO cElebRaTe pROpeRly..nOw..dUncH tInk dERe wiLl bE tIme fER mOi tO cELebRaTE..aRRGh..i wANs mOi bIrtHdAe..!oH wELl..dEns oN tUesDAe..i tiNk..i sTIll hAB tO gO fEr a wEDdiNg dInnEr..aRRgh...tHis meANs i wIll bE dAMn tIrEd..aRRgh..jUz hOpe tHaT tHe wEEk wIll pASS bY fAsTeR..mOi iSh lOOkiN fOrwARD tO tHe lEaDeRsHiP cAMp..aLtHOuGH bOtH cHeRyL aNd bEllE wIll nOt bE aBLe gO..aWWw..!i wANs eItHeR oNe tHeM tO gO..oR nOt i wIll bE vErY lOneLy..sObZ sObZ..

hAHAAs...tOdAY i sAT vERy cLoSE tO dERRiCK dUriNg aSSembLy..hAHAAs..hE cUt hIs hAir..aGaiN..itZ sHo dAMn sHoRt nOw..nOt uSEd tO iT tHougH..hAHAAs..hMMm..sHOuld mSg hIm aNd aSk hIm wHy hE wANnA cut hIs hAIr..bEttEr nOt..hE mAybE studyiNg fER hIs 'O's cHinEse..mIght dIstUrB HIm..oH wEll..hAHAAs..hE wAS lAUghiNg dUriNg aSSembLy wHeN tHe sPeaKeR wAS tALkiNg..tHe sPeAkeR..pRETTy lAMes..hAhAAs..i lAUghEd TOo..deNs sAW dERricK lAUghiNg..hOnesTlY sPeakiNg..dERRicK lOoks qUitE gOod wHeN hE sMilEs..sHoulD aSK hIm tO sMilE mOrE..

tOdAY..i tHougHt oF hIm..buRt tRieD nOt tO tInk tOo mUcH..ActuALly i wAS kIndA sHaG wHEN mOi heARD mR hAfIz tAlkiNg aBt tHis tEaCHeR wHO gOt tRanSfFeReD bCUz hE wAS gOiNg Out wItH a sTUdENt..wHeN i mOi heArd iT..mOi wAS lIkE tOtALLy sHaG..dErE wOuLd bE nO fUtUrE fER tHe tEaCHeR iF hE wAS fOunD tHaT hE wAS gOiNg Out wItH a sTUdENt..aS mUcH aS i hOpE tHaT i wIll bE aBlE tO gO oUt wItH *ahem ahem*..bUrT i dUncH wiSH tHAT hIs cArrEr wIll bE gOnE..hOw..mOi iSH caUgHtt iN a dIleMmA..hAIz.tHis sImpLy jUz sUx tO tHe cOrE..aFTeR mR hAFIZ sAE tHoSE tHinGs..i wAS lIke..hAIz..dUnCH nOeS wAD tO saE..i tRIeD tOdAY...dIdn'T kEEp TInKiN oF hIm..oNlI tHOuGHt oF hIm lIkE fER 2 tImEs..i tInk tHaT'S a gReAT iMpROvEmenT...bCUz usuAllY mY mInd WIll bE fIllEd wItH aLL hIm..bUrt i tInk i wIll aLwaES kEEP hIm iN mOi hEaRT..nEbER wIll i fOrgET hIm..i cANs fOrgET tHe crUsH i hAb fEr hIm bUrT i wUn fOrgeT hIm..wEll..i gUeSS SHO..bUrT fOrgETTiNg iSh rEALli tOuGH..!
fOrgETTiNg iSH tOugH..lUrviNg iSH eaSY...


Tuesday, May 18, 2004
{ freed on 10:07 PM

oH yEaH..!i dUnch hAb tO gO skOOl tOdaY..sLePt tIll aROunD 10 tOdaY..dENs gOt uP tO cHaNgE aLl tHiS tO pREpaRE mOisELf fEr gOiNG oUt..hAHAAs..exAMs aRE ovER..sHOuLd bE rElaXiNg aNd chillIn oUt rItEx..hAHaas..kAEs kAes..wEnt oUt tOdaY wItH sEreNe..bEllE...cHeRYL..wAN lIng..aNd sHeeNA..wE weNts tO oRcHaRD bUrT iT sEEMs aS tHouGH dERE wAS nOt mUcH tHinGS tO sEE..aNd sHo wE wENtS tO bUgIs..hAHAAs..wE tOOk nEOpRInTS..sHo fARnI mAN..lALaas..

kAes kAEs..sHO whEN aLl oF tOok fInsH tHe nEoPrinTS..bElle aNd i sAe tHaT wE nEEd tO gO lOOk fER sOmethIng..bUrT acTUaLLy in fAct..wE wEntS tO lOOk aROunD fER h²..cOulDN'T fiNd hIm..sHo cAL eVeliNe tO aSK hER hELp uS aSK wHeRe iSH hE wOrkiN..wANteD tO gIb cHeRyL a sUrprIsE..bUrt couLdn'T..cOuldn"t fInd hIm..hAHAAs..finE..sHo wHeNs wE gOnnA gO hOme..wE sAW wEE wEE..taLkeD tO hER..hEaRd fROm hEr tHaT sHe iSH nOt gOnnA tEaCH oUt skOOl..sHe iSH goNNa tEaCH aT beDOk tOwN..aH..aCTuallY sHe isH qUitE a gOOd teAcHeR..dENs i asKeD bElle tO hELp mOi aSK iF aNdReW tAn iSh cUmmiN tO teaCh aT oUr skOol..sHe saId tHaT sHe duNch nOEs aS sHe neBer aSK hIm aBt tHe skOOl tHaT hE iSh poStEd tO..wEll..aFtER heAriNg..i fELt kInda sAd..thOugHt maYbE i cOulD sEE hIm agaiN..aRRgh..iM rEAllI fEEliN vEry cOnfUsED..i rEalli wAnnA fOrgEt abt hIm..bUrT i kEEp tHinKiN oF hIM..aH..i hAb aLrEaDY vOw tHaT i wIll fOrgEt hIm..wHy cAN'T i jUz sTOp tInkiN oF hIm..hIs sMilE ..hIs eVeRythiNg kEEPs aPPeaRIN iN mOi mINd..aH..!wHy..i sHOuLd rEAllI fOrgET aBt hIm..tHe lOngeR i dRaG..tHe mOrE pAin i wIll fEEl...bUrt iM uNwIlliN tO put aLL tHis behiNd mOi..i cAN'T sEEM tO pUt aLL tHiS bEhiNd mOi..tHe mOrE i tRy..tHe mOrE i tINk aBt hIM..i cAN'T hEAR tHosE sAD sOngS..bCUz tHey wIll mAKe mE rEMembER aBt hIm..i hATe hIm..wHy mUz hE cUm bACK..iF hE hAdn't cUm bACk..i wOulDn'T hAB bEEn iN sHO mUch pAIn rItEX nOw..aRRgh..bUrt iT iSh aLsO tHrOuGH hIm tHaT i hAB lEarNt a lOt..lUrvE cAN'T bE fOrcEd..iF u lUrvE sOmeOne yOU wIll defIniTely waNtS thaTt pERSOnN tO fEEL hAppY eVEN tHOugHh yOu cAN'T eNd uP wItH hIm..yeAH..i rEAllI leARnt a lOt fROm tHis uNrEquiTeD lUrvE..


Monday, May 17, 2004
{ freed on 9:32 PM

hEy dErE..!finaLLy..!i hAB fInisHeD mOi'S exAm..aH..sHO hAApy..!lALAAs..hAHAAs..sOrrIe..mOi'S sCrEW iSh lOOsE..bEllE..wHeR aRe yOu..?i nEEd mOi'S mEdicInE..lAlAAs..mUaHaHas..hAHAAs..oH nO..mOi scReW iSH reALLi lOOsE..

kAeS kAEs..hMMm..todAY iN tHe mOrniNG..aT tHe aSSembLy gROunD..i saW dErricK wHiLe waItiNG fER hOrsE(hOsh) tO bRiNg uS baCK tO cLaSS fER oUr e mAtHs pAPeR..hAhAAs..hE hAB tO gO baCK tO sKool tML..mE..?duNcH hAB TO..hAHAAs..lALAAs..wAHS..sHO hAPpY..tML fInaLly dUncH hAB tO gO skOOl..pOor dErriCK..!hAhAAs..kAEs kAEs..i sHOuLd nOT sUaN hIm..hIs 'O's fEr cHinEsE iSH cUmmiN sOOn..iTz oN tHe..31st oF maY..fASt hUh..?yEAh..iM gOnnA wIsH hIm aLl tHe besT fER hIs cHineSE..hOpE hE doES wEll..

wEll..tOdAY mOi wENt tO eaSt cOaSt paRk tO cYclE wItH bElle..wANlINg..sErENe..sHeeNa..aNd lAz oF aLL..cHeRYL..bUrT bcUZ cHeRYL hAb tO gO bACks eaRly..sHe didn"t cyclE..aCtuaLLy iSH dERE wAS nOt eNuFF tImE tO teAcH hER hOw tO rIdE a bIkEy..hMMm..nExT tImE wE sHouLd gO pAsIr rIS aNd dENs wE cANs tEaCh hEr hOw tO rIdE a bIkEy..kAes kAEs...wENt TO tHe beACh..wROtE aNdReW tAN oN tHe sANd aNd leT tHe waTER wASh iT aWaY..i hAB maDE uP mOi mINd..iM gOnnA tRY mOi vErY bEsT tO fOrgEt hIM..nO maTtER hOw haRD iT tAKes..i wIll fOrgET aBt hIm..todAY i sHOuTeD oUt aT tHe bEaCH..iM gOnnA fOrgET aBt yOu aNdReW tAN..wEll..i gUeSS tHaT'S tHe eNd oF tHiS mAjoR cRusH i hAB oN hIm..aNywaE..tOdAY aFtER cHeRYL lEfT..wE wEnT cYclING..wOw..sUrpRIsiNgLy.. i fELt tIrEd..mAYbE iTZ bCUz i hAbEN eXeRcIsE fER a lONg tIMe bA.. bEfoRE wE hEaDED hOMe..wE wENtS tO sIT aT tHe rocKs dERE...wEll..tO tEll tHe tRUtH..i kINdA sTaRtED tINkiN aBt hIm..aNd oN sPoRtS dAE wHEN hE rAN..hIs sMiLe..hIs lOOks..sImpLy jUz maKes mOi mEsmeRIsE..i wAS kIndA rEGReTTiN mY cHOicE tO fORgET aBt hIm..wELl..bUrT iF i dUncH gIb uP..i wIll fEEL mOrE pAIn wItHiN mOi..bCUz iT wIll rEAlli hUrTz a lOt..oH wELl..mIgHt aS wEll i gIb uP..jUz hOpE tHaT i wIll nOt rEgReT mY cHoicE tO fORgEt aBt hIM aGaiN..wIll i eVeR bE aBlE tO luRvE aGaiN..i dUncH nOes..i dUncH tiNk i wIll bE iN tHe mOOd tO tALk aBt aLl tHiS rELaTIoNsHiP maTTERs fOr a wHiLe..i nOes tHaT iT wIll bE vERy tOugH oF mOi tO fOrgET aBt hIM..bUrT i bElieVE tHaT iM dEtERmiNeD eNuFF..i wIll bE aBlE tO fOrgET aBt hIm aS tiMe gOeS bY..i tInk i hAB rEAlli lEaRNT a lOt fROm tHiS..IF yOu lUrvE sOmEoNe,lEt tHeM gO,iF tHEy rEtUrNn tO yOu,iT was mEaNt tO bE,iF tHEy dUnCH,thEiR lUrvE wAs nEbER yOuRs tO beGinN wItH..aNd aLSO tHaT lUrvINg sOMeOnE dOeS nOT meANs tHaT u mUz bE wItH hIm..i gUeSS i tRUeLy lEARNT a lOt fROm tHIs..hAhAAs..gOt tO gO lE..bYez bYeZ..!
p.S:rEaD tHiS fRoM tHe nEt..iTz rEAllI tRUE..!
LUrVE
It is hard to forget a person you have once love,
But why we still want to get involve in it?
Love is such a strange thing,
No one can predict it,
It can come and go in an instant,
Leaving you happy and sad memories,
It breaks your heart, leave you crying all by yourself,
and a scar in your heart forever....


Sunday, May 16, 2004
{ freed on 12:58 AM

yOzZie..iM bAck..!hMMm..cOunTiNg dOwN tO eNd oF eXAMs..1 mOrE dAE..wAhs..iM sHo hAPPy..fInAlly..iTz tHe eNd oF eXAms..aFtEr oNe wEEK oF sUffeRInG..eXAMs aRe gOnnA fInaLly bE oVEr..hAhAAs..nOw iSH oNly tHe wAItINg oF rEsUlTs..hAHAAs..tInK tHiS tIMe Im gOnnA dO veRy badLy fER mOi'S eXAms..serIoUsLy..iT waS aLl laZ mInutE sTudY wOrX..sUmmOre aLL sTUdY aLl fOrgEt..exCePt fER bIo..iTz sTILl iN mOi'S miNd..eRMs..lIkE wAd Ish ThE DeFiNaTIoN Of OsMOSiS..DiFFUsiOn..AcTIve TRaNsPOrT..LAcK Of ViT. c WilL CAuSe WAd dIsEaSe..hAHAAs..i jUz sIMpLy caN'T fOrgEt..

kAes kAEs..wEnt iRC yEsTeRdAE..sOme pPlE waNtEd mOi'S nO. aS i dUnCh rEAlli gO iRc laZ tImE..i gIb mOi'S nO..aNd sHo..tHis gUy kEEps mSgiNg mOi..aSKiNg iF hE cOuLd cAL mOi..aRRgh..iTz gEttiNg oN mOi'S neRvEs..iM nEbER eVeR gOnnA gIb mOi'S nO. aGaiN tO pPlE iN iRC..aRrGh..!

wEll..eXAms aRe gOnnA bE oVeR..tHAt MeAnS I WiLL Be AbLe To TinK Of HiM..HahaaS..BcuZ I ToLd cHeRYl tHaT i wUn tINK oF hIm dUriNg eXAms..eXAms gOnnA bE ovER lE..tHaT mEaNs i wIll bE aBlE tO tInK oF hIm..hAhAas..sAE tHaT i wAnnA fOrgEt aBt hIm..tHeN i sTill tINk Of hIm..hAIz..nO oNe eVeR sAE tHaT fOrgETTiNg iSH eASy..hOw i wIsH tHAT dERe wOuLd bE sOMe kInd oF piLLs tHaT wOuLd mAKe u fOrgET aBt aLl tHe uNhAPpy sTuFF aFtEr u tAKe tHem...i wOuLd bUy tHEM..aNd i wOuLd tAKe tHeM...hAIz..iM mIssiNg hIM..wHy..?cANs aNyoNe tELL mOi wHy..i dUncH nOes tOO wOrX..i rEAlli wANnA sEE hIM..wIll i eVER bE aBlE tO sEE hIm aGaiN..i rEALli hOpE sHo..dEN aT lEaST i wUn sUfFeR sHo mUcH..hAIz...wHy dOeS lUrvE hAb tO hUrTz sHo mUcH..i dUnCH nOEs..mAybE i cAN oNLy bLaMe mYseLf fER lIkiNg tHe wROng pERsON..yeAH..oH wELl..hAIz..tHIs sUx..tHis rEAllI sUx a lOt..mY hEaRt..hAB bEEn bRokEN iNtO pieCeS..i pUt oN a maSK eVeRydAE..tO cOveR tHe uNhAPpiNeSS tHaT iM fEELiNg..sOmeTImES i fEEl tHaT iM vERy tIrEd oF pUtiNg a mASk..
siGniNg oFF..iM vErY tIrEd..dUnCH wAnna pUt oN tHe mASk aNymOrE..



Friday, May 14, 2004
{ freed on 11:59 PM

Ah..!tOopId mE..i jUz dELeTEd mOi WHoLe pOsT aNd hERe i aM aGAIn..wRitINg a nEw oNe..aGaIN..!fInaLLy..tHe eXAMs aRe ovER..eRmS..nOt rEALli ovEr..i sTIll hAb One tOopiD paTHetIc paPer tO gO..e MatHs pAPeR 2..wAHs..itZ oN mOndAe..iT oNLy laSt fEr oNe aNd a hALf hOurS..aFtEr tHaT..iTz cElebRaTiOn tIme..wOhOo..!kAeS..tOdaY waS mOi hIstoRy aNd pHysIcs paPer..hAhAAs..hiStOry..i oNlY sTuDiED a fEW pAgEs..bUrt tHaNx tO mOi aLwaEs liSteNiNg iN cLaSS dUriNg hIsTorY..iM aBlE tO dO mOi paPer..bUrt i dUnCH nOes iF tHe poInts tHaT i hAb wRitTeN iSH iMpoRtANt..oH wELl..pHySIcS..?a dEfiniTelY fAIl sUb..i dIdn'T undErsTaNd mOsT oF the qUeStiOns..sHo tOtAlly wROtE cRaP oN tHe pAPeR..wOw..tInk i wIll bE fAiliNg a lOt oF sUbS dUriNg tHiS mId yeAR..i jUz hAB tO bE pReParEd tO lIstEN tO pArENtS sCOldINg..hAHAAs..

wEll..i dIdn'T sEE dERRicK aT aLL tOdAY..nOt at aLl..nOt eVEn hIs bACk vIew..hAhAAs..onLi nOeS tHaT tHeY wEre hAbiNg tHEIr a mAThS pAPeR tOdAY..

i mIss hIm i mIss hIm i mIss hIm..tOlD mYsELf tHaT i sHOuLd nOt bE tInkiNg aBt hIm..bUrt i cAN'T...i sHOuLd nOT bE tINkNg aBt hIm aNymOre..bCUz tHe mOre i tInk Of hIm..tHe mOrE mY hEaRt hUrTx..sHOuLd i bE gIbiNg uP..hE aNd i aRe iN tOtAL 2 dIffeRnT wOrLds..hE wAS nOt meANt tO bE mIne iN tHe fIrsT pLacE..aNd bCuz oF hIm..iM nO lOngER the jOycE tHaT mOi uSEd tO bE..tHe sIaOz sIaOZ gEr iN sKool hAs nOw bEcUm a QuieT gEr iN sKool..tHe pReSEnT jOyCe cRyS vERy eASiLy...i hAb bEEN leARniNg hOw tO gIb uP..bUrT i cAN'T..tOOpId..wHy mUz yOU eNtER iNtO mOi lIfE..iF yOU dIdn'T cUm bACk..nOnE oF tHiS wOuLd nOT hAb hAPpEn..i wOuLd nOt hAB eNd uP sHo mIsErabLe nOw..wEll..i gOt to gO sIgNiNg oFF..wHy mUz yOu cUm iNtO mOi lIfE..i sTill lUrVE yOu..dO u nOe..?


Thursday, May 13, 2004
{ freed on 6:01 PM

hEyz hEYz hEyz..!yOzziEs..iM bAcK..aGAin..hAHaAs..kAes kAes..fiNaLly..i hAB dOne uP mOi's tAg bOaRd..hEhEes..kAes kAeS..tOdAy wAs MT TinG Li..bIo aNd lIt paPeR..hMMm..mT tInG lI..eASy wOrX..hAhAAs..sUrE pAss..bIo..?i tInk i sCReWeD uP tHe wHoLe pAPeR..aRrgh..iM qUiTe sCepTIcAL aBt mY bIo nOw..i dUnCH nOes iF i wOuLd bE abLe tO pAss mOi'S bIo pApeR..aH..!tHe pAPeR wAS sHo tOuGH..!kAeS..lIt..?hMmm..i mUz aDmIt..i dIdn'T sTuDy mOi'S LiT..wEll..oNlY a bIt jUz nOw dUriNg tHe 45 mInS bReaK aFtEr mOi'S bIo..kaEs kAes..i tInk i tOtaLLy wRotE cRaP oN tHaT pAPer..bUrT aLL mOi'S eSSaYs wERe qUitE aLL qUitE lOng..bUrT rEaLLi..i wAs pRepARed tO fAIL mOi'S lit pAPeR..i Didn"t hAb hIgh hOpEs On iT..sEriouSlY..!oH wEll..gUeSs iM gOnnA fAIl a LoT oF sUb tHiS mId yEaR..mR sHaRiL sAe tHaT evEn iN tHe mId yEaR..tHaT wE mAybE cHannElled tO nOrmAL..iSH tHaT poSSibLe..?i duncH nOes..wIll i bE oNe oF tHeM iF dErE iSh rEAllI sucH a tHiNg..?sIgH..nOw iM sTarTiNg tO pAniC fEr oTheR sUb..iT sEEms tHaT aFTEr mOi'S bIo..dERe iSH nO mOrE eXAm mOOd tO sTudY..hAhAAs..

wEll wEll wEll..i didn't sEE dERRiCk tOdAY..i oNlY sAW hIs bAcK vIeW..hAhaAs..i dUnCH nOEs..iT sEEmS tHaT WHen hE iSH mSgiNg mOi..i fEEl mUch hAPPiEr..rEaLLi..nO kIddiNg..i fEEl tHaT hE cAn bE tRusTEd oN sOme sTuFF tHaT i tELl hIm..oTHeR dEn mOi'S oWN gAng oF fRenZ oF cOurSe..bUrT wEll..nO oNe cAn tAKe gOd'S pLacE iN mOi's hEaRt..wHEn i wEnT TO cHuRCh oN sUn..i fELT aS tHouGh i hAb lEt hIm dOwn..i hAB bEEn tInkiNg aBt *ahem ahem* mOrE tHaN hIm..iTZ wRong..aNd sHo iM gOnnA pUt gOd fIrST iN eVeRyThiNg i dO..iM gOnnA dO jUz tHaT..gOd iSh wItH mOi iN eVERytHiNg i dO..hAHaAs..i hAb bEEN prAyiNg..thAt i wIll bE aBlE tO rEMeMbER aLl tHe sTuFFs tHaT i hAb sTudIeD..aNd wEll..iT hELpeD..iT rEaLli hELpeD a Lot..hAhAAs..sEE..gOd aNsWeRs mOi'S pRaYEr..

oKiE oKiE..i aDmIt..i hAb bEEN tiNkiNg aBt hIm tOO..tOdAy..aFtEr mOi'S lIt..bOth mOi aNd bEllE wEnT tO lOOk fEr tHe oTheRs..tHeY wAiTeD fEr uS..fEr aT leaSt..3 hOuRs..aH..iM sHo dAMn tOucHeD..dEN hEaRd fROm cHeRyl..tHaT sOme gUys aSked sEREnE fEr hEr nO. hAhAas..aNd tHEy wAntEd cHeRYl'S nO. tOo..hAHAAs..yeAH..cHeRYl tOLd mOi..tHeY hAB bEEN sTaNdiNg aT aIjIsEn fEr a lOnG lOng tImE lE..bCuz sErEnE wAntEd tO seE tHe guy tHaT lOOks lIkE HB..hAhaAs..mUz hAb bEEN tIreD fROm aLl tHaT sTAndINg..wE wEnt pAsTamAnIa tO eAt..bCUz wAn lIng wAnted tO sEE sOmeOne tHat sHE wANts tO sEE bUrt dUnCH lIkEs..okIe..fIne..aT lEAST tHey hAB sOMeOne tO sEE..mE..?nOne..oh wELl..mAybE 2..ERmS..nO..onLy 1..bCUz tHe oTheR oNe gOt sTeAd lE..hAHaAs..kAES..tHe oNe i wANt TO sEE And lUrvE..nOt iN skOOl aNymOre..haIz..tHiS sImpLy sUx..aT leASt aLl of tHEM wIll bE abLe tO sEE sOmeOne tHey waNt aT aNy tIme..mE..?aRRgH..i haTe tHis kInd oF fEELiNgs..iT sEEms aS tHouGH iTz All mOi'S oNe-sIdEd lUrVe..eRms..iT iSh a oNe sIdEd lUrVE..i DUnCH nOes..mAybE cAN i jUz sEE hIm fER oNe tIme..aFTeR tHaT i wIll fOrgEt aBt hIm..iNcLudInG tHe tIme aT tHe sPorTs mEEts..wHeN hE rAN..hIs SMiLe..eVERthing..i wIll fOrgET..ArRgH..aM i gOnnA rEgReT tHiS..wEll..mAybE..ARRgH..cAN'T tiNk oF hIm..i mUz fOrcE mysELf mYsELf nOt tO tInK oF hIm..
sIgniNg oFF..nOt gOnnA TInk aBt yOU aNymOre..bCUz tiNkiNg onLY maKes my hEaRt bLeed mOre..


Wednesday, May 12, 2004
{ freed on 5:23 PM

hArlOoW..!hAbEn bEEn uPdAtiNg dUe tO tHe fAcT tHaT i hAb tO sTudY fEr mOi'S eXAmS..kAeS kAEs..hMMm..eNglIsH pApeR wAs quiTe oKiEz..tHouGh i tInK tHaT i mAy nOt bE aBlE tO sCorE wEll..hAhAAs..i uSeD tHe mEtHoD tHaT sArAh tAugHt mOi..iT hELpeD..a LoT..!!sHo..iF sArAh yOu aRe rEaDiNg...tHaNx lOt..!kAeS..sOcIaL sTudIeS..?gUeSS iM gOnnA fAiL tHaT sUb..i tOtALlly wRotE cRaP oN tHe pApeR aNd hAndED iN tHe pApeR..haHaasS..e maThs pApeR 1..?gReAt..!iT wAs gOOd..tHouGh tHe dUrAtIoN wAs tOO loNg..hAhAAs..bUrT iM cOnfIdENT..cHEMiStRy..?uH oh..tHaT pAPer iSH aNoThEr sUrE fAiL pApeR..hAhAAs..i dIdn"t undeRsTaNd wAd tHe qUeStIoNs wERe tAlkiNg aBt..hAhAAas..tOdAy..MT pAPeR..dEfIniTELy a pASs..a maTHs..?FAIL..!sHo tHaT'S aNoTher sub aDDEd oNtO mOi'S fAiliNg sUb lisTs..hAhAAs..tML iSh bIo..LC aNd liT..sEE..?tEaChERs aRe iNsANe aS tO pUt 3 pAPeRs iN 1 dAy..aNd wAd's mOrE..iTz bIo..aNd lIt...hMMm..iM sTudyiNg mOi'S biO nOw...aNd i wIll bE sTudyiNg iT tOniTez Too.. i cAN'T pOssibLeLy fAil tHaT sub rItEZ..?lIt..?i dunCh gIb a dAmN..hAhAAs...aNoThER sUb aDDeD tO fAiliNg liST..sHo lEt mOi sEE..sOciAL sTudIeS..fAil..cHeMiStRY..fAil..a maThS..fAil..lIt..fAIL..

kAes kAEs...eNouGh oF sTudiEs..wEll..i sENt a gOOd niTeZ mSg tO sOme oF mOi'S fReNz..aNd tO dErriCk..aNd..hE mSgEd baCk..hAhAAs..wAs quiTe shoCkEd thougH wHeN hE msgEd bACk..hAHAAs..kAeS kAEs..aNd sHo..i fOuNd oUt tHaT hE wAnTS tO gO jC aNd bE a DOctOr wHEN hE gROwS uP..wOw..gOOd hUh..?hAhAAs..wEll..cAn sAe tHaT hIs a mAtHs iSh dAMn gOOd..fROm a E8 tO a B3..wOw..tHaT's rEAllY sOmeTHiNg..hAhAAs...i cAN nEBeR bE lIkE hIm..mE..mAybE aT tHe vErY moST iSh a D7 tO mAybE a C5..?

hMmm..hAb bEEn tInkiNg aBt hIm..eVeRydAY..eVeRy mOmeNt..gUeSS tHaT'S wAd tHeY meAN bY..aBSEnCE mAkEs tHe heArT gROW fOndER..i hAb bEEN tRyiNg..tO fOrgEt aBt hIm...aFtEr tHe eXAms tOdaY..wE wEnt tO mAc tO eAT..wHiLe eaTiNg..i sAW a gUy'S bACk vIeW wHo lOOks aLoT liKe hIm..i tHouGHt iT wAS HIm..buRt..iT wAS nOt..sIgh..bEllE sAEs i hAb bEEN qUiTE qUieT wHEn iM eAtiNg wITH dEm..i dUncH nOes..iTz juz tHaT..eVEr sInCe hE lEfT..iT iSh aS tHoUgh pArT oF mOi iNsiDe dIeD tOo..iM nOt lOngEr tHe jOycE tHaT i uSeD tO bE..tHe pREsEnt jOycE iSh tHaT hER heArT hAb bEEN bRokEN aNd tEaRED iNtO piEcEs..cAn hEr heArT bE eVEr mEnD bAcK..?i dUnCh nOeS tOO..i wAnnA lAugH mY hEaRTS Out..bUrT i cAN'T..eVErYwhERe i gO..i hOpEd tHaT i wOuLd bE abLe TO sEE hIm..bUrT iT aLwAYS eNdS up a diSSapOiNtmEnT..mAybE aS tImE gOeS bY..i wIll sLowLy lEaRn hOw tO lEt gO oF tHinGs tHAt dOes nOt bELonG tO mOi aT tHe fIrST pLaCE..hE wAs nOt mInE iN tHe fIrSt pLacE..iTz tIme i lEaRN tO lET gO..bUrT..lEttiNg GO iSH tOuGH..i wIll hAB tO fOrgEt aLL tHe mEmoRIEs i hAb oF hIm..dUriNg SPoRtS mEEts..eVErYthiNg aBt hIm..!wHy dOeS mY hEaRt fEEl sHo mUcH pAIn..?sIGniNg oFF...lETTiNg Go isH hArD...cHeRiSH wAd u hAB..dUnCH rEgReT wHen u hAb losT iT..


Sunday, May 09, 2004
{ freed on 12:16 AM

hArlOoW..!i hAb fInALly lEaRnT hOw tO dO uP mOi's blOg tEmplaTe..kAEs kAEs..fIrsT aNd fOremosT..i wOuLd liKe tO tHAnk mOi's bEst buDdY..sARaH..!sHe hElpeD mOi a lOt wIth tHe wHoLe bLoG teMplaTE aNd aLl tHe oTher sTufFs..sArAh iF yOu aRe rEaDing..tHanx pAl..!

kaEs..cOunTdOwN..aH..aNoThEr 1 mOrE dAE..cAn'T bELieVE tHaT iTz sho fAsT..aRRgH..oNly fInisHed sTudyinG fEr mOi's sOciAl studIeS aNd chemiStRY..aH..!oH nO..!i aM gOnnA sEE a lOt oF rEd mArKs iN mOi'S rEporT bOOk..eXAms rEaLLi sUx..tHey gIb eVEryOnE tHe eXAm pHobIa..hAhAAs..i jUz sAw mY exAm timetAbLe agaIn..iM gOnnA hAb mOi's biO paPer aNd lit papeR oN thE saMe dAe..sHo cOOl mAN..tHiS meANS tHaT i wIll bE sTudYiNg fER mOi's bIo aNd nOt lIt..hAhAas..sAe sAyonArA tO mOi's liT..bUrT aNywAE..i duncH gIb a dAmN..tOO bAD..!hAhAas..*lOOks aT cAleNdAR*18 mOrE dAEs aNd iT wIll bE mOi's b'dAe..hMMm..sTIll hAbEn thoUgHt oF wAD i wANt fEr mOi's b'dAe prEsEnT..nOw i wIll hAb tO cRaCk mOi bRaIn tO tInk oF waD i wANt..bUrT fIrsT..i'LL juz gEt iT ovEr wItH mOi's eXAm..

bEEn quiTe dOwn tHouGh..eVeR sincE hE leFt yeSterdAY..hMMm..wIll i eVeR bE aBlE tO fOrgEt aBt hIm..?i duncH nOes tOO..i pROmiSe kEL tHaT i wIll fOrgEt aBt hIm..burT..i duncH wANna fOrgEt..!hAIz..~ tHis simPy sux..wEll..sErEnE iSh oN tHe sAMe bOaT aS mOi thouGH..sHe wANtS tO fOrgEt aBt HB aNd tEREnCe..aNd mOi wANts to fOrgET aBt ATM..!sErEnE sAEs iT will dEfiniTeLy tAke tIme...i dUncH nOes hOw lOng iT wIll tAke fEr mOi tO fOrgEt aLL abt hIm..tOOpiD him..wHy dId hE hAb tO leaVe tHe sKool..hAIz..~kAes kaEs..wEnT out tO eAT dInnEr wItH mOi'S fAmiLy jUz nOw..wAs hoPiNg tO sEE hIm dERe..buRT..nOpE..dIdn'T gEt tO sEE him...sIllY huh?yeAh..eVEn i tInk tHaT iTZ oF nO uSE.....
++Pain.In.My.hEaRt.and.it.hurtz.++


Friday, May 07, 2004
{ freed on 5:12 PM

hEYz..iM bAcK..!coUnTdOwN tO tHe ExaMs..anOtHEr..3 dAyS..!aH..!iM iN dEEP sHiT rItEZ nOw..hAbEN evEN eVEn sTArTeD sTuDyiNg..oNlY fEr sOmE sUbjEcTS tHEN sTaRTEd sTuDyiNg..hAiz..sHiT sIa..3 mOrE dAES oNlY wOrx..gUeSS i WUn bE aBle tO gO OnLiNe fEr tHe nExT wHoLe wEEk..cOs..bUsY sTudYiNg..!

sAW dERRiCK tOdAy..hAhAAs..!i wAs wITh wHo aRhS..aT gEneRAl oFFicE dErE..eH..oH..iT wAS sHEEna..hEhEEs..dEn sAw hIM wALkiNg tOwaRDS mOi'S dIreCtIon..hEhEEs..tOlD sHEENa wHO hE wAs..hAHAAs..aCtuaLLy..dERRIcK qUiTE sHuAIz lARX hOrx..hEhEEss..!

sIgH..oN tHe oTHeR hAnD..iM fEEliNg dAmn sADz nOw..yEsH..rItEZ nOw..i jUz kNoW tOdAy..tHaT ATM wAs gOnnA lEaVE sKooL lE..wAhAhAs..aSk wEE wEe aNd sHe tOlD mOi..waHaHas..i wAs sHo dAmN sADz wHEn i hEaR tHe nEwS lOrx..heArT bROkEN sIa..wun gEt tO sEE hIm iN sKooL aNymOrE..i tOLd tHe rEsT aBt iT..tHeN dUrINg rEcESS..i hAb tO wRiTe fIniSh tHe tOOpID cOntEnTs paGE fEr mOi's pHysIcs..gOt sHEENa tO hElp mOi wRiTE..bCuz tHe rEsT wErE cOmplaIniNg tHaT i wRiTe veRy sloW..sObz sObZ~hAhAas..kaEs..aNd sHo bEll rIng lE..sUdDenlY sErEne.. wAN lInG thEy aLL aSk mOi tO sEE tHe oTher sIdE..aNd gUeSS wHo i sAW..ATM..!oUr eyeS mEt..i hAb dIrEcT eYE cOntAcT wItH hIm..aNd tHeN i aCtEd aNd sAE wAd wAD..tHeN hE wEnT uP tO tHe 3rD fLooR..aH..!iT wAs sHo dAMn oBvIoUs..!hAIz..aNd sHo..aFtEr sKooL...mOi..bEllE aNd sErEne wEnT To lOOk fEr tHaT tOopId teAcHeR oF mInE tO paSS hIm bElle's aNd mOi's fIlE..wE wErE sTaNdINg iN fROnT oF tHe gEnErAl oFFIcE..tHeN wHeN i tuRneD aNd lOOkEd inTO tHe gEnErAl oFFicE..he wAs inSiDE..i toLd bEllE aNd sErENe..tHeN hE cAMe oUt wOrx.. hEaRD hIs cOnvO wItH jUstIn..sAiD sOmetHiNg lIke gO aNd eAt...hE sAiD oKie..aNd i aSkeD sErEnE tO aSk hIm tO hELp mOi lOOk fEr sOh..sHe aSkEd...aNd i wAs sTaNdiNg quiTe cLoSe tO hIm..juz aS wHEn hE wAS aBoUt tO leAvE..sOh wAs cOmiNg oUt tOO..tHeN thIs tIme i WaS rEAlli rEalli cLosE tO hIm..fELt sHo haPpy aT tHaT momEnT..buRt iT wAs onLy fEr a whiLe...hAiz..sAw hIm gETTin inTO tHe cAr wIth jUstIn aNd sIm..tOOk dowN hIs cAr lisEnCe pLaTE nuMbER..gUeSS i wAs sHo sIllY rItEz..wAD'S thE poInT..wHeN hE iSh aLrEADy leAvInG..aFtER hE dRovE oFF..i tOlD tHeM..mAybE tHiS iSH hOw iT hAb tO eNd..haiz..gUess tHiS rEaLLi hAb to eNd..nO mAtTer hOw muCH unWIlliNgnESs i haB wItHiN me..nO maTTEr hOw muCh paIn iM fEElin..it sTill hAb tO eNd..dErE iSh sHo mUcH pAIn wItHiN mOi nOw..mY hEaRt hAb bEEN tOrn iNtO pIeCEs..bItS aNd pieCEs oF mOi's heART nOw..gUeSs i cAn nEbER bE oKiE..tHiS hEaRT oF miNe cAn nebEr bE paTChEd bACk..hAIz..!
sIgnInG oFF...luv hUrTZ..


Thursday, May 06, 2004
{ freed on 11:22 PM

hArLoW..!iM bAcK..!hAhAAs..bEEn tRyiNg tO uPdaTe lIkE..eVErYdAY..dErE wIll aLwaYs bE sOmeThinG fEr mOi tO tALk..hMMm..iTz a cOuNtdOwN..aNotHEr 4 dAeS mOrE aNd iT wIll bE mOi'S eXAM..wAHahAs..!sHO fAsT..!!sObZ sObZ..!tHiS meAnS tHaT i wIll nOt bE abLe tO uPdaTe mOi'S blOg fER tHe wHoLe wEEk..aH..!sTupiD eXaM..!

wEll wEll wEll...i sAW dERRicK tOdAY..i tINk oNce onLy..wHeN wE wErE wAItInG fER wAN lIng tO fInIsH hEr dEtEntIoN..kAeS kAEs..i sHaLL eXplAIn..i wENt To tHe cANtEEN wItH sHeEna..sAW lYNeTTe aH yI..aNd sHo wE sAT dOWN dErE aNd tALk aBt tHaT SIP(stupid idiotic pig)aNd hIs wHoLe dUmB gAnG..aNd sHo..nEtTe aH yI hAd a dAtE wItH mR lAI fEr cHeMiStRY..sHo bOtH mOi aNd sHeeNa wALkEd aWaY..loW aNd bEhOLd..i sAW hIm..wEll..bEllE tInKs mAybE hE iSh tHoSe kInD tHaT oNlY lOOkS sTrAIgHt..dUncH lOOks sIdEwAYs..i tInK sHo tOO..oR nOt..wHy dIDn'T hE sEE mOi yEsTeRdAY..cOrrECT..kAES kaEs..hAhAAs..aCtuALLy..hE lOOks quIte cUtE...hAhAAs..wAhaHas..sEnsE tHaT iM goiNg bOnkERs sOOn..!bEllE...wHeRe aRe u??i nEEd mOi's mEdicInE..!

gUeSS wHO i sAW todAy...hIM..ATM..!i wAS't eXpEcTiNg tO sEE hIm tHouGh..rEALLy..bCUz i dUnCH uSuaLLy sEE hIM oN thUrSdAY..kAES..aFTeR mOi's cHinESe..bOtH mOi aNd bEllE wERe dOiNg fIniSH oUr hoMeWOrK..tHEn..pIeRRe cAMe tO mOi's tAblE aNd toLd mE tHaT ATM iSH hERe..aLthOUgH i aCtEd aS thOugH i wASn't shOcKED..bUrT i waS..bEllE wAS sHoCkEd tOO..i gUeSS..aNd sHO..i wAS tINkiNg..hoW dId pIeRRe nOe..eXcEPt fER mOi's cloSe fReNZ aNd..kELvIN noE..!kELvIN..!i wEnT tO lOOk fER hIM sTrAIgHt..kELvIN wAS aT tHe dOOr..i aSkeD hIm tO cUm oUt..fEr a wHiLe..i wAs kiNda unHaPPy tHouGH bCuz i tHouGHt hE hAd tOLd pIeRRe aBt mOi *ahem ahem* ATM..aNd dEN..wHeN wE wErE tAlkiNg sUdDenLy..ATM cAMe oUt..i wAs tOtALLy sHoCKeD..i wAsn'T eXpeCtiNg tO sEE hIm cUm oUt bUrT hE cAMe oUt..hE wAS sMiLiNg wHEn hE cAmE oUt aNd tHaT sMiLe tOtaLly meLt mY heArT..aH..!hE wAS wEaRiNg dArK bLuE tOdAy..aH..i tOtALLy dIdn'T eXpEct tHaT hE wIll cUm oUt oF tHe kLaSs..hAIz..eVeR sIncE i sAW hIm tOdAy..mY miNd hAb bEEN iN a wHiRL..i jUz dUncH nOeS wHy..hAIz..!i pRomiSe keL tHaT i wILl tRY mOi's bEsT tO fOrgEt aBT hIm...bEEn tRyiNg aLreaDY..bUrT eNd uP tInKiNg oF hIm..aH..!iZZit fAtEd fEr mOi tO sEE hIm tOdAY..?hAIz..!
[[to.love.ish.easy.burt.to.gib.up.ish.difficult]]++[[letting.go.ish.not.easy.at.all]]


Wednesday, May 05, 2004
{ freed on 5:16 PM

hEy hEy…im bAck..hmmm..Didn’t gEt tO uPdAte yEStErDaY..bCuZ I hAd qUeStIoNiNg sEssIon fEr bIo…aNd sHo..i sTudY fEr tHe whole niTeZ bUrT sAd tO sAE..i dIdn’T gEt tO sTudy fIniSh..iTz iMpoSSiblE tO sTudY fIniSh rIteZ..sEvEn cHaPpiEs tO study..nO oNe cAn eVEr sTuDy fInISh rItEZ..aNd sHo..toDaY wAs mOi’s dOOm dAe..quEsTiOnINg sEssiOn..nO oNe lIkes that..mOi whole class wAs sTudyiNg bIo dUriNg p.E..cAN’T hELp iT tHouGh..bCuZ dErE wERe pEOplE whO hAb tO rEtAkE tHeIr fIvE sTaIonS fEr nApFa..sHo I studied…kAes kAes..wEll wEll..mR hAfiZ gAvE mOi a suPer dIffiCulT qUesTioN…i dIdn’t nOe hOw tO sAe tHe aNswEr..mY mind wAS tOtALly iN a bLanK..!!dEn I sAW oNe oF moi’s cLaSsmAtE tElliNg tHe oTheR gEr sIttiNg bEsIdE hEr tHe aNsWeR aNd sHo I liP rEaD hEr aNs aNd tOlD hIm..iT wAS cOrrEcT..!pHeW..!i hAd tHe sHoCk oF mOi’s life mAn…tHouGht I wAs gOnnA hAb tO copy tHe wHoLe bOOk..!pHeW..pHeW..!

oKiE oKie..guEsS wAd..?i wAs sIttiNg bEsIdE dErrIcK tOdAY fER aSSembLy..wEll..hE wAS sLeePiNg tHouGh..thRouGh tHe whOlE aSSeMbLy..hAhAAs..hE lOOks cUtE wHeN hE iSh sleeping tHouGh…buRt dUnCH gEt mIsTAkEN..hE iSH onLy oNe oF those tHaT I wAnnA sEE aNd nOt I lIke..hEhEes..kAeS..buRt aFTEr wHEn mR fAtHuL sAE wE cAN gO oFF..hE dIdn'T bOtHeR tO aT lEaST sMiLe aT mE..i wAs likE :( i hAd tHe iNtENtIOn oF sMiLinG aT hIm..bUrT hE aCtEd aS tHouGh hE dIdn'T nOe mE..fRAnkLy sPeAkIng..i wAS quiTe upSeT..bEfOrE aSSembLy..i sAW hIm wHen i wAS gOinG fEr p.E..wANtEd tO smiLe aT hIm..bUrT hE dIdn'T eVEn lOok aT mE...aH..!wHy mUz iT aLwaYS bE tHaT wHEn i wANna sMiLe oR jUz sAE hARloW tO hIm..hE juz pReTenDS..wHy..?mUz gErs aLwaYS tAKE tHe iNitIaTIvE..?aH..!pRETTy pIssEd oFF..hOw cOulD hE jUz pReTEnd aS thOugH hE duNcH nOes mE..aH..!sOmeTImES i fEEL tHaT iM bEgInniNg tO hAB sOmE fEELiNgs fEr hIm..tHiS fEELiNgS juz cOmeS aNd goEs quiCKlY..aH..i dUncH nOeS laRx..

weLL..i sAW hIm aGaIn iN tHe mOrniNG dUriNg moRniNg aSSembLy..hE wAS wEaRiNg bLuE tOdAy...hE lOOks wEiRd wHEn hE wEARs blUe..aS iN lIgHT bLuE..u nOe..hE suiTs dArK cOloUrS bEtTeR..or WhiTe..hE lOOks gOod wHEN hE wEaRS tHeSe cOloUrs..kAeS kAEs..aNd tHEn..wHen wE wErE gOiNg fEr p.E tOdAy..wE wALk pasT ThE CanTeeN AnD GuEss Wad..I Saw HiM..I iMMEdIateLy WalK FaStEr TrYInG NoT to SeE HiM..AnD ShO..I SuCCeeDEd In NoT SeeInG HiM..i sAW hIm agaIn aFTeR rEcEss..sErENe wAnTEd tO sEE *aHeM aHeM* aNd sHo wE(beLL..mOi aNd sErEnE)sTooD dErE aT tHe sTaIRs tO wAiT fER hIm..bUrT i dIdn'T eXpeCt hIm tO cOme uP tHe sTaIRs..AnD shO..He Came Up ThE StAirs..I TriEd NoT To LooK At HiM..BuRt MoI'S EYEs BEtRaYEd MoI..I lOOkEd aT hIm wHen hE wAS gOinG uP tHe sTaIRS tO tHe 3rD fLooR..aNd tHEn..aFtER LIt..mOi wEnt tO tHe toLiEt wItH faRaH..sAW kElvIn at tHe sTaiRs dEre aND tALkEd tO hIm fEr a wHiLe..aNd agaIn..hE cAMe dOwN fRoM tHe 3rD fLooR...mY eyeS fOllOwEd HiM..unTil hE wAs oUt oF mOi'S sIgHt..i hAB bEEN tRyiNg tO fOrgEt aBt hIm..tRyinG rEAl hARd..bUrT eVErytImE mY hEaRT bEtRaYs mOi..i wIll eNd uP tInkiN oF hIm aNd mIss hIm..sOmeTImEs..i jUz fEEl LiKe tELLiNg hIm i gOt a cRusH oN hIm..bUrT iTz iMPossIbLe fER tHe 2 oF uS...jUz fEEl LiKe cRyinG...nOeiNg tHaT i wIll nOt bE ablE tO bE wItH hIm mAKes mE fEEl sHo sAdz..!
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Monday, May 03, 2004
{ freed on 10:18 PM

aH..!fInALLy..!i hAb fInIShEd sTuDyINg fEr mOi's mId yEaR eXaMs..aH..!i dUNcH WaNt MiD YeAr ExAmS..!tHeY sUx..!mId yEaR eXAms iSh iN lIkE 1 wEEks tImE...aNd i hAb oNlY sTaRTeD sTuDyiNg fEr sOmE suBjEcTs...aH..!eXamS sux..!supEr sUpER sUx..!i hAte eXaMs..iT gIbS mE tHe eXaMS sIcKnESs..!!aH..!
wEll..tODaY..wHeN i wAs iN tHe aSSembLy gROunD dOinG sIlEnT rEaDiNg...i tUrnEd to lOOk aT DeRRicK..aNd tHEn aDriAn..wHEn i LooK uP..gUeSS wHo i sAw..?hIm..i sAw hIm..i iMmeDiAtElY tUrNeD aWaY..dIdn'T wAnnA sEE aNY lOngER..bcUz..mY hEaRT wIll aChE...hAIz...mAybE aFtEr aLL..wE aRen'T mEaNt tO bE tOgEtHeR...wEll..tHe pOiNt iSh tHe tWo oF uS cAN'T bE tOgEThEr..lOOk aT tHe aGe dIffErEncE aNd aS wEll aS tHe sTaTuS dIffeReNcE...aH..!jUz fEEl lIkE gOiNg tO tHe bEaCh tO sCreAm aWaY aLL mY sAdnEss wItHiN mE...mAybE i'LL dO jUz tHaT aFtER tHe eXaMs..hAIz..!oH yEah..hE wOrE bLaCK todAy..hE juz sImPlY sWeeP mE oFF sOmeTImEs..aH..!i sHouLd nOt bE tInkIn' oF hIm..hAhAas...i wILl sTaRT tO tInK oF hiM laTeR..i gUeSS..!

kAeS..i kEEp sEEiNg DeRRicK tOdAY..wHeNeVEr wE waLk pASt oNe aNoTHEr..wE jUz pReTeNd tHaT wE dunCh noEs oNe aNoThER..i fEEl pReTTy wEiRd tHoUgH..iTz lIke..i jUz wAnnA sAe a hArLoW tO hIm bUrT i dUnCh hAb the gUtS tO dO thaT..wHy aRe tHe tWo oF uS lIkE thaT..?wEirD wEiRd..!tHe tWO oF uS cAN tALk LikE fReNZ wHEN wE aRE mSgiNg oNe aNoTHEr..bUrT wHEn iT cumS tO fAcE tO fAcE...wE jUz pReTeND..oH wEll..mAybE tHe nExT TImE i sEE hIm..i cAn aT lEaSt smiLe aT hIm..sHouLD I..?
oH..!i'M sTaRtIn' tO tInK hIm aGaIn...cAn I jUz bReAK mOi pROmiSe..?i DunCh wANnA fOrGET abT hIm..!
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
{ freed on 11:09 PM

hEY hEy..i'M bAcK..!wEnt mAlAccA wiTh mOi pArENTs..dAd wEnT dERe tO pLaY gOlF..mY mUm aNd I..?wE wEnT dERe tO sHoP..I lUv tHe fOOd dErE..iT sImPlY rOx..tHe hOtEL..?iT sUx..LiKe sHiT..iM nEbER eVeR gOnnA sTaY iN a bUdGeT hOtEl aNymOrE..tHe rOOm wAS sHo sMaLL..dErE wAs nOt eVEn a tAblE fEr mE tO mOi hOmEwOrK..dERE wAS oNLy a sMaLl SpaCe tO pUt a qUEEn sIzEd bEd dERe..aNd wAd's mOrE..tHe tOiLeT wAs tOTaLly sHo sMaLL..!tErribLe..!aH..!tRusT mE oN mOi's wOrDs..iM nEbER eVER gOnnA sTeP IntO a bUdGET hOtEL..eVEn fER a nItEz..i WIll jUz dIe iF i hEb tO sTaY dErE fEr aNoThEr nItEz..
wEll..wEnT tO sHoP lAz nItEZ aT mAkOtA(in malacca)..hAhAAs..pASs bY a aDidAS sHoP..rEmNDs mE oF..hIm..hE aLwAyS wEaRs aDiDAS sHiRt tO sKooL...aT tHaT mOmEnT..i tOld mYsElF...i mUz sToP tInKiN aBT hIm..aNd sHo..tRiEd tO kEEp mOi thOuGHts aWaY aBt hIm..kInDa succEEdEd..bUrT laTEr iN tHE nItEZ..i sTarTeD tInKiN aBt hIm aGaIn..aH..!hOpElEss..!kAeS kaEs..i fOrgEt TO meNtIOn..wHEn i wAs iN mAkoTa ShoPPiNg wITH mOi's pArEnTs..dEre wAs thiS gUy wHo kEEp sTaRiNg aT mOi..hE sHoulD bE aRouNd mOi tHiS aGe oR mAybE oLdEr bY a fEw yEaRs..hE iSh quitE sHuaIz yoU nOe..hAhAAs..i sHouLd bE sHoPPin aNd nOt bIo gUyS..kAeS.mOi nEEd TO gO sLeeP ..wILL uPdAtE sOOn..!