{ when time comes to a standstill.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

{ freed on 3:31 PM

deadline extended, yet again.
should i be happy about it?

the late nights and burning midnight oil to rush the report.
research done over and over,
report done all over again time and time again
just one word.
all it took was a word to kill me.
has the efforts all gone to waste?

i've suffered enough
and i've had enough.
i'm doubting my abilities now.

i feel like crying right now.

Labels: i need a getaway.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

{ freed on 11:09 PM

A BIG FAT THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES AND PRESENTS! =)

shaoying.
eddie.
fiora.
jonathan. =)
trina dearest. =)
wanling darling. =)
belle darling. =)
nixon.
shellen.
keith.
jian zhang.
shengyang.
chuanliang.
june. =)
celine. =)
chee seng.
sarah.
farah my bitch. =D
adrian.
benny.
phyllis.
uyanga.
yan ting.
aunty yee tiang.
bianca.
rachel.
celena.
maryam.
yanda. =)
shawn.
verrine.
wan ting. =)
KOR KOR.
MOMO.
DADO.

I REALLY LOVE ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES AND THE PRESENTS! =)

{ freed on 11:04 AM

i swear i had the most unique birthday celebrations! went out with fiora, melvin(yr2), eddie and jonathan. i simply loved the celebrations! they got me the donuts from donut factory! like seriously, oh my goodness! i was really surprised! i went really blur! hahaas.

and oh, i've gotta say this. FIREWORKS are LOVE, like seriously. i was freaking overjoyed when i saw them! i screamed and laughed like nobody's business ytd. hahaas. we had so much fun just walking at marketplace which was located at raffles city. hahaas. the jokes that we made, the crazy antics. LOL.

and i just wanna thank the following people for the birthday wishes!

shaoying, eddie, fiora, jonathan, trina dearest, wanling darling, belle darling, nixon, shellen, keith, jian zhang, shengyang, chuanliang, june, celine, chee seng, sarah, farah my bitch, adrian, benny, aunty yee tiang, bianca, etc. hahaas. too many to name though. will slowly pen all your names later on. hahaas.

gotta thank momo dearest and dado dearest cos they've been really good and have been tolerating my nonsense. The late nights, temper and attitude hasn't been great towards them. i've just been a spoilt brat always who's used to getting whatever she wants and now, the spoilt brat is turning mature now and she really appreciates everything that momo and dado has done for her. THANK YOU MOMO & DADO! I LOVE YOU!

lastly, I'M FINALLY 18! WEEEEE! i can finally learn driving and buy my own alcohol. like.. wayyyy to go! hahaas. no doubt 18 means i can learn driving, go clubbing, pubbing watch m18 movies but that also means that i've gotta be more responsible now and not continue to be the spoilt brat that i was. =)

the donuts that they gave, 18 of them! =)

18 AND LEGAL! =)

Labels: 18 and legal.

Friday, May 25, 2007

{ freed on 2:15 PM

to HER,

EXCUSES EXCUSES EXCUSES.

that's all i've gotta say.

{ freed on 12:22 PM

just read my friend's blog and damn, i think this is getting wayyy tooo ridiculous already. like seriously, what the bloody hell.

it's the guys' choice as to what colour formal top they wanna wear. why must SHE restrict them to the colours? guys can't wear black cos it will look as though they're going clubbing? like HELLA LOAD OF RUBBISH. read that, RUBBISH. there's guys who wear black for presentations and they still look really great and presentable and HOT. get that, BITCH?

and what the bloody hell is SHE trying to get at? that THE VIRTUAL GROUP isn't gonna perform? I HATE PEOPLE WHO LOOK DOWN ON OTHERS. SHE'S JUST A STUCK UP BITCH, LIKE SERIOUSLY.

mood hasn't been great ever since ytd and after reading my friend's blog, anger is boiling within me. arrgh, arrgh, arrgh.

this ain't gonna be a great week afterall.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

{ freed on 10:59 PM

the presentation today was a flop, a total flop. how i wished i could have just shut HER mouth up, like what the bloody hell. i was so freaking pissed off with HER actions and words that i swear i could have just scolded the F word and just ask HER to shut the hell up.

1st incident - one of june's grp mates was caught in a jam and so they asked if they could present at a later group and not as the first grp. SHE was simply heartless and told the grp to go ahead without the groupmate.

i was like, why can't SHE be more lenient? arrgh. anyway, the groupmate arrived while june's group was doing the presentation halfway through.

2nd incident - alright, something happened and to be frank, it was really bad. my group became so freaking pissed off with HER and one of them teared. i told her," don't let HER see you cry. if SHE sees you cry means SHE has already won the battle against YOU." no matter how pissed i was, i told myself to cool down and just keep calm first.

3rd incident - after the 2nd incident, SHE kept shooting us with questions during the presentation, making things hard for us. i swear there were times during the presentation that my palm was all clenched tightly and i had the urge to just ask HER to shut the f'up. like seriously. when presentation ended, i immediately packed my stuffs and left the LT. i couldn't stand a single minute more with that HER inside.

imagine, i was so freaking pissed that my tears were threatening to fall any moment. i told myself, it's not worth crying over whatever SHE said. arrgh.

my mood was seriously affected. didn't have the appetite to eat my lunch but june told me to have my lunch in case my gastric came back. yeah. lost the mood to do everything else, including studying for my FA test which is tmr. ARRGH.

practise what you preach,
that's all i can say.

Some random cam whoring. { freed on 12:24 AM

alright! this is way too cool! like seriously. i never knew my phone could ever upload photos to my blog. =)

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

{ freed on 8:56 PM

it's already the mid week now. i've got project submissions and a test on friday. not to mention, i've got a presentation tomorrow and it's gonna be formal wear for me tomorrow. also, presentation's gonna be in the lecture hall. it's gonna be a second for me and even though it's gonna be a second, i'm still feeling all nervous right now.

SIGH. plus, my report's not edited yet and my speech for tmr's presentation hasn't been prepared yet. i guess i'm gonna have to burn the midnight oil to rush throughthe presentation slides and report.

i'm supposed to feel slightly happier cos my big day's coming soon but yet i don't feel happy. maybe i do but i guess, i've been too busy this few weeks. i guess i really need a break, like seriously or else at this rate i go, i'll be going nutcase soon.

SAVE ME PLS?

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

{ freed on 12:44 AM

what the ~~fcuk~~, like seriously. WTF. just when i thought that my mood would still be slightly happier, the bloody attendance just dampened my mood. what a idiotic system the DAMN attendance is man. the system is such a screw up. i was never absent for my financial accounting tutorial and APEL lesson and yet i was marked absent for the 2 lessons. like wth man, seriously.

arrgh, i'm so freaking pissed off right now. ain't it great?! i was in class all along and yet my attendance is marked absent? like seriously, the tutors should go get their eyes checked. boohoo. my mood is so freaking affected right now. SARK.

enough of the angry stuff already.

went to school today and i think it was really dumb. lol. reached school at 0920 and went for lecture. around 25 mins later, my lecture ended and there wasn't any CASH lecture after that so celine, june and i headed over to the MAC opposite TP for breakfast! hahaas. MAC breakfast makes my day! =) after that, went to do project and boohoo, it wasn't good at all.

and so in total, my day has not been a good one. DARN.

Sunday, May 20, 2007

{ freed on 11:31 PM

and this post goes out specially to the sick monster, ms june tan.

GET WELL SOON, BABE!
TAKE CARE! =)

i don't wanna lose my crapping partner! =) life's gonna be very boring without you around crapping with celine and me!

LOADS OF LOVE FROM,
joyce. =)

{ freed on 10:09 PM

great! blogger's like finally back to normal and i'm so freaking happy cos i can upload pictures again! WEEE~ ain't that great? pls be happy for me! thank you. =)

weekends ain't considered weekends for me. all i ever do is sit in front of my laptop and start working on my projects. it's week 5 right now and it's really bad considering that i've got 2 project submissions and a test on friday. and that reminds me that term test is fast approaching. GREAT and i still know nuts about everything that i'm studying right now. this is getting wayyyy tooo bad for me.

however, there were some things that made my weekends happier.

* 1 - went to sarah's home for cell and went to jalan kayu for PRATA! hahaas. headed down to the hiding place after that to watch the guys play soccer.

* 2 - CHELSEA WON MAN U! sorry big bro. =x

* 3 - big brother has kindly sponsered a bag for me, my birthday present from HIM. that's my brother! =)

okie, i am supposed to be doing my report actually but i've got absolutely no whatsoever idea on how the report should be written and plus, i'm having a writer's block right now. ain't that like fantastic? of all the times, my writer's block just had to come at this very hour. i'm sitting in front of my laptop, staring at ms word, figuring what exactly i have to write.

chatting with melvin and eddie makes me happy and forget what ever rubbish reports i have to do. LOL. and we're the ultimate 3. YAY for us!

eddie is MR CUTE.

melvin is MR STUNT.

and i'm MS BORED.

ain't that cool? hahaas. EDDIE YEO'S MR CUTE! hahaas. lmao.

okie, i have to get back to my report. wish me luck pls?

i wanna ride that ferris wheel when it's done. =)

Labels: stressful week ahead.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

{ freed on 9:36 PM

yes and finally my blogger isn't a mess now. i'm actually dead tired, like seriously. i'm tired of school, tired of everything that's happening right now. i miss being a year 1, a life so carefree without worries.

the deadline for CASH report has been extended to the week after next. thank goodness it was extended or else i will be all so stressed up. well, i am though right now. there's the powerpoint slides and the report which are waiting for me to complete it. i hate the school life i have right now. there's nothing but projects projects projects. the workload has become tremendously heavy for me and i'm having a hard time breathing cos everything's so stressful.

alright on a lighter note, it's CCN day this coming friday and yes, i still have lessons. poor me. =(
i hope they have mass dance after that cos i remembered we danced the mass dance that time as well. hahaas. =) i love the mass dance larx!

i'm getting tired.
maybe it was a wrong decision afterall.

Labels: i need a breather.

{ freed on 12:48 AM

my blogger's being an ass. it's totally screwed up for mine and i can't freaking hell upload pictures. like what the hell, what the hell, what the hell. this sarks, like hella sark.

my days are really bad right now, like seriously. i hardly have time to breathe. the reason why i'm like blogging lesser and lesser is because i've got LOADS of work that needs to be completed and the oh-so-terrible deadlines are coming. it's hella sarky. and by the way, my deadlines are like in week 5 which is next week. tell me how bad can my year 2 life be?

i'm ~~fcuking~~ tired and drained. the projects are draining my energy like in huge amounts. i wanna sleep! boohoo. =(

tell me what to do, please?

Labels: all so confused.

Saturday, May 12, 2007

{ freed on 12:05 AM

the week has been really tiring for me. i come home almost drained every day. can you imagine how tired i am? not to mention, i'm sick right now. BOOHOO~ it's really not good to fall sick when you have project deadlines approaching like really soon. please please, let me recover soon alright?

alright, i have to say i've really been muddle-headed for this past one week cos i almost lost my handphone like twice during this week! i was nearly on the verge of tears each time i realised that my phone wasn't in my bag.

the very first incident - we were having lab and tutorial and so i took my phone out and placed it on the computer table. when lessons ended, i packed my stuff into my bag and i absent mindedly left my phone at the lab and went out with june and celine to business sch for lunch. it was only at the business sch canteen that i realised my phone wasn't with me. i panicked, like seriously and i asked june to call my phone. THANK GOODNESS mabel and the others were still there in the lab. mabel helped me to safekeep my phone and i took it from her during the next lesson.

the second incident - i can't really recall much but i think i brought my phone to the toilet and then again, i absent-mindedly left my phone at the toilet. it was only like when i reached mac which was opposite TP that i realised my phone wasn't with me.i panicked and panicked cos i knew that i wasn't gonna be that lucky this time. and so june called my phone and then.. someone picked up the call and it turned out to be jonathan. june was like.. HUH? LOL. in any case, i got my phone back and i really thank god for that.

i finally mustered my courage.
and i'm proud of myself.

Labels: no longer hiding.

Monday, May 07, 2007

{ freed on 11:12 PM

WARNING: HEAVY POST. =)

i'm cooked and chao ta right now. LOL. i'm the walking chilli crab yet again. i seriously look really chao ta now. wahahahas. this is really really crazy. hahaas. =) i absolutely loved the week 0 outing yesterday.

woke up and got prepared before i headed out to tampines to meet celine. THOUSAND APOLOGIES TO CELINE COS I MADE HER WAIT LIKE DAMN LONG. lol. sorry celine! walked to the mrt station with her and i saw jonathan there! anyway, mrt-ed down to harbourfront to meet the rest of the people plus my freshies! sorrie c164, i was late, like seriously late. hahaas. oops. =x

there were kinda some delays here and there and yepp, i left first with my freshies to have breakfast cum lunch cos they were hungry. hahaas. left for sentosa after that. we took the monorail in! like wahahahas! =) headed down to siloso beach and yepp, our fun started. it was really hilarious, like seriously. jonathan got dunked into the water first by the guys and celine, june and i realised we were in a very very dangerous position. the guys came out from the water and made their way towards us. thank goodness there was a tree around! hahaas. june, celine and i hugged the tree like nobody's business. they almost dunked me into the water! thank goodness they couldn't cos i told them i couldn't go into the water. hahaas. and so, they changed target and jonathan grabbed june's leg and oops, soon she got dunked into the water. not to mention celine was thrown into the water by them as well. it was really funny. i was laughing all the way. hahaas. the two girls went into the waters while i sat on the sand watching them. they told me to go down into the water. as much as i wanted, i couldn't.

but oh well, in the end i still went into the water. yepp. cos i was given a choice of whether i would rather be dunked into the water or i would prefer to walk in by myself.of course i chose to walk into the waters by myself. no sane human would wanna be thrown into water. anyway, we stayed there till like plus before we left for dinner. jonathan and i ps-ed the rest to go look for celine and june who were eating at BK. lol. eddie and melvin (yr2) came to join us. it was really fun having them around for dinner.

we walked around vivo after that and it was home sweet home for me cos i was really tired. THANK YOU MUMMY DEAREST FOR PICKING ME AT THE MRT STATION. =)

alright.. pictures up next. blogger's a lil' weird now.

Friday, May 04, 2007

{ freed on 11:05 PM

i had a hella great time today in school! and yes, i swear i really do love school minus the projects and assignments, like seriously. WAHAHAHAS.

i was late for accounting lecture, as usual and by the time june and i stepped into the LT, it was already 9.20. (THANK YOU JUNE FOR WAITING FOR ME! ) we went in and sat at the first row of the LT right in front of the lecturer cos there weren't any available seats at the middle and back. and tadaa, june and i started talking. LOL. we were like talking all the way and weren't even paying attention to what the lecturer was teaching. at around 9.45, the lecture ended. i was like.. HUH! so early! lol. thus, june, andy and i made our way to design school canteen to have our breakfast cum lunch. met fiora on the way and she joined us for breakfast cum lunch. yepp.

after which, we went for tutorial which also ended earlier than usual and then it was breaks breaks and more breaks. 4 hours of break, like really great. headed over to lab to get our notes printed and then i skipped the golf meeting for my project discussion. oops! =x went back and heard some news later. well when i first heard the news, i didn't have much reaction though. but after a while, things began to set in. i was.. relieved but on the other hand, i felt cheated after all the hark work we went through to get all the information.

[ fast forward to 6p.m ]

stayed in LT1 cos the subcomm meeting was held there. accompanied celine to the bus stop to meet her friends and i swear i was really cocked eye. hahaas. they kept telling me so-and-so was over there but i just didn't see who it was until the person was right in front. like.. AHHH!! and in the course of eveything, they decided to change the topic for our CMSK4 project to visually disabled. they bullied me! lol. saw quite a number of my seniors who came back for the meeting and i really missed them! i missed the times that they were around and we would always see them at the concourse area of IT school. anyway, chatted with them for a while before june, jonathan and i left for TMall. i was laughing throughout the whole bus ride there, i swear. my stomach was hurting like nobody's business from all the laughing. Went to yoshinoya for dinner (which i didn't eat) and there were some really funny incidents! i was laughing my hearts out at yoshinoya!

left for home after accompanying june for dinner and saw celine on the way. hahaas. and yes, i ended up laughing throughout the whole bus ride home as well. therefore in total, i laughed for like 2 hours with occassional pauses in between. my stomach was seriously aching like nobody's business. OUCH. it hurts right now like seriously.

my days will never be completed without a laughter right now. hahaas.
=)

Labels: i love the bus rides.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

{ freed on 9:41 PM

Some random pictures:

The ice cream sijie, fiora and had on monday.
i like the swirl. =)

AND PRESENTING THE GUY WHO WORE HOT PINK AND HAD A PINK V3 RAZOR!
MELVIN! =p

oops. =x

cheerios people! =)

{ freed on 9:00 PM

going to school was starting to become a chore for me. to be honest, i've never liked school ever since the semester started. in fact, i hated attending lessons. the only motivation i had each day was that i'll be able to see june, celine, wan ting and the rest of 156 in school. i hated the timetable cos lessons started at 8 or 9am and end at 6pm everyday.

well, i actually like coming to school now. can you imagine? today was actually fun, like really fun. hahaas. dragged myself to school cos i stayed up till quite late the previous night to do my research. waited like darn long for break to arrive and then june and i headed to ITAS to have our lunch. melvin (MWC YR2) came to join us and wahahas! we had a hella fun time teasing him! lol. the guy who wore PINK and had a PINK RAZOR. lol. i couldn't stop disturbing him about it. =)
he went for lessons while june and i went to the computer lab to slack around. i couldn't remember how long it was but melvin msged june to ask where we were and asked us to accompany eddie and him for lunch. lol. we did and it was a correct decision. LOL. i think june and i had a hella crazy time laughing our ass out. EDDIE and MELVIN must be separated or else my stomach will hurt from all the laughing.

went for tutorial after that and the darn old gastric came back. left me feeling so uncomforable and i headed home after tutorial ended. popped in some pills after i got home and here i am now, sitting in front of my laptop. it's still hurting though. boohoo~

{ freed on 12:07 AM

i'm supposed to be doing my research that i have to use for tomorrow's project discussion. but i just can't concentrate. there's too many distractions right now like online shopping, friendster and other webs and something has been occupying my mind like ever since last night. i tell myself, " it's nothing. silly girl, stop thinking about it. it's over already. " but no matter how many times i repeat that to myself, i find myself thinking about it.

TELL ME WHAT A FOOL I AM.

alright, i shall just stop here. i don't know how to continue explaining everything. i have to get back to my research anyway.

i'm such a fool,
like a fool in love.

Labels: i wished i was never that curious.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

{ freed on 11:10 PM

was supposed to go for the LT outing but some stuff cropped up. SORRY C164! really really sorry that i can't go. had my own reasons for being unable to attend, hope you all will understand.

headed down to bugis after grandma's home cos i had the intention of getting another bag. well, i did and i got myself 2 more tops as well. and mummy dearest paid for everything, the bag and the 2 tops. YAY! THANK YOU MUM! =)

alright, there's this really weird feeling within me ever since i heard about something yesterday night. i don't know why i'm feeling this way. maybe i'm just over-reacting. and maybe
sometimes, the past should just be left alone and not dug up.

my heart hurts a lil' now.
nad my feelings are in a mess right now.

Labels: i'm falling deeper.