{ when time comes to a standstill.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

{ freed on 2:41 PM

serious mental block
can't tinkk of a nice starting to my composition

god, pls help miie.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

{ freed on 10:07 PM

i desperately need help.!
i seriously need help.
i need someone to confide in.
or else i'll go nuts.

i NEED help.!!

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

{ freed on 8:00 PM

bio test was gr8 i suppose. juz hope that i dunch fail this test. bcuz i'm gonna fail myy homeostasis test. yeahh. loads of tests comingg. chi common test tml. sighs. chem test this week. next week a maths test. that's ferr all now. failedd myy physics test. careless mistakes. yeahh. burt i gotta admit too. i didn't really stardie. bcuz i remembered that we had our test on tues andd dere was also chi test. sho yeahh, i stardied ferr chi instead of physics. gonna stardies ferr chem. dunch wanna fail again.

mood swing ish gettingg betterr i guess. not too tempermental this few daes. burt i'm still actingg nonchalant abt some stuff. loads of things habb happenedd. dunchh wanna elaborate. long story. sighs =( whyy can't dere be a no-trouble life. feelingg stress too. myy stardies are not improving. okie, maybe itz improvingg byy a little. burt i'm still not satisfiedd wibb myyself. whyy can't i juz habb da motivation to stardie.? seeingg sarahh sho hardworkingg, i juz feel sho ashamedd of myyself. jan has already gona by. soon, feb ishh gonna go too. i'm left wibb 8 months to stardie. i'm gonna stardie. this ishh gonna be a changingg point. i will stardie. i'm not gonna throw away myy future. i wanna stardie andd get good grades. do myyslef proud. dens at least i'll be able to feel a sense of accomplishment when i get myy results backk. mid year ishh in may. gonna buckk upp. gonna aim ferr a 20 andd below ferr myy mid yearr andd a 11 ferr Os. gonna aim. =) wish miie all da best.

*poof*

Friday, February 18, 2005

{ freed on 8:20 PM

had cross country today. no skool. yipee.!! i decidedd to run today.usually, i would be walkingg through da entire route burt i was runningg today. surprisedd huhh.? hehees. i ran with chin hui. couldn't find anyone to accompany miie. not very happy with my position though. i could have done betterr. oh well.

mr lai was second ferr da male teachers. hehees. he didn't look like da sort who would be able to run that fast. hehees, andd guess wadd.? daniel loh was first. he was wearingg his short pants yet AGAIN. ahaha. it would lookedd as if he wasn't wearing any pants if his shirt was any longerr. hahaas =D i saw him in those pants before too. yupp. he was standing at da skool gate. andd it was orange at that time. hmmm, daniel loh might be showing off his sexy legs again. hehees. shall go disturb him on mon since i didn't get a chance to disturb him today =) i sound sho mean huhh burt yeahh. hehees.

farah was in da 8th position ferr da upper sec gerrs. gosh.! i'm sho proud of her =) hehees. i cried today. in choirr. i was kinda touchedd byy "above all" da song. i'm such an emotional freakk. sighs. oh well. gonna go star gazingg with my darling trina soon. sho here i come stars =) wait ferr miie kaes.?

i ~~hate~~ mood swings

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

{ freed on 5:05 PM

gonna pass myy chi test.
i hope.

terrible mood swing.
darn badd.
attitude towards pple
nowadaes juz sarkk darnn badly.
it sarks terribly.
i dao pple now.
not talkingg much now
dunch try to irritate miie.
leave miie alone.

mood swings are bad.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

{ freed on 7:02 PM

loads of a maths hw.
failedd myy a maths test.
passedd myy e maths test
maths ishh drivingg miie nuts.
i mean it.
itz drivingg miie nuts.

cross country on fri.
no skool ferr that dae.
dunchh habb to see that shitheadd.
gr8 dae.

isolate miie.
i dunchh care.
i dunchh gibb a damnn anymore.
wanna be anti-social from now on.
will only talkk to certain pple.
andd yeah,
dunchh tryy to change miie.
i will not change.
i'm not gonna trust pple sho easily now.
get lost. leave miie alone.

anti social gerr

Friday, February 11, 2005

{ freed on 6:54 PM

changedd everythingg in myy blogg.
like it.?
i bet you do.

=)

{ freed on 5:20 PM

happy new yearr.!

saw wo ai ni da mv on wed.
sho darn touchingg..
i almost criedd..
i did tearedd..
da two lovers were only reunitedd
when they were old..
sobx sobx..

loads of memories came backk
when i saw da mv..
i told myyself to let go..
he's not gonna come backk..
burt..i haben been able to do sho.

this sarks terribly.

i'm such a fool

Saturday, February 05, 2005

{ freed on 11:38 PM

listeningg to karma by alicia keys.
nice song.
hehees.

went ferr ms lee's concert ytd nitex.
a nitex of funn andd anxiousness..
darn..commonwealth sec choirr ish
sho darn good..
sighs..when will choirr be that standardd.?
long long time...
miie..belle..cheryl..jocelin..chin hui
plus chen chuan..mike andd christopher
met upp first before goingg dere..
we bought flowers ferr ms lee,shi yun andd yemin.
andd we made da guys hold da flowers.
hahaas..it was such a funny sight..
we were also busy discussing abt da guys holdingg da flowers.
hahaas. it was such a funny sight.
you should see it ferr yourselves..
i was "abusedd" byy christopherr.!!
he pinchedd miie sho many times.!!
andd darn..it was pain..
toopidd christopherr..alwaes bullyingg miie..
sobx sobx..poor miie..
not to mention, myy voice was darn badd ytd
afterr cheeringg ferr ms lee.
we went to merlion parkk after da concert.
da place brought backk loads of memories.
shan't talkk abt that. itz an emotional sub.
found out something.
hmmm..can't sae that i'm lost ferr speech or wadd.
maybe i'm juz..surprisedd.?

while walkingg to city hall mrt..
i couldn't findd myy mp3 playerr.
i startedd to panic.
guess it was written all over my face.
cheryl andd da rest helpedd miie to go backk dere to look ferr it.
burt when dey went backk, it was already closedd.
meanwhile, i was sho worriedd..i prayedd andd prayedd..
i juz prayedd andd prayedd..
that was da only thing that came into myy mind.
belle toldd miie that da place was closedd.
i toldd myy parents.
dey were angry..of course..

i went down to vch today..
wibb myy mum..
we were dere at abt 9.30 like that..
waitedd..burt no one was in..
lookedd ferr da security guard..
he told us that da cleaners will come at 12.30..
told us to come back at that time.
sho we did.
we came backk at around..12..
was waitingg...saw anotherr person..askedd da person
da person sae muz wait ferr management to come
dens cans go in..andd he also sae that it depends on your luckk
not longg afterr that..i saw a man holdingg a bunch of keys..
mum andd i went upp to him to tell him.
he offeredd to help us by helpingg to on da lite
i went upp wibb him..as soon as i got to da concert hall..
i rushedd to da place that we sat ytd.
as da lite was still not on..i felt myy wae through..
got upp andd walkedd on..
bend down to feel da ground..andd dere..i felt it..
i found it.!!
i was estatic.!!overjoyedd..
loss ferr words..
i criedd..
thankk da person..
thankedd godd..
praise da lord..

he does wonders..
i dunch doubt it..
thankk you god.!